Sunday, October 9, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
When I was still in my university years, I used to think about what’s the best way to teach physics to my future students. When I was interviewed by MARA, I told them personally that the best way to teach students physics is to let the students ‘feel’ physics. Let them explore and let them learn from their mistakes and show them how physics is one of the knowledge that give them the space to be creative and try to explain the universe and how it works. Ideally I planned an environment where the students are free to dig the subject, plan their own experiments, and ultimately have the ability to deduce. It doesn’t have to be the right explanation, as long they’re comfortable to share and discuss their ideas, that’ll be just fine. I’d like to make an environment where the students feel safe to pour their thoughts in my class. Where their views are respected and sharing ideas is one of the main elements in my teaching.
How my ideals were quickly crushed, well, not crushed but I quickly realized the challenges, when I started my career as a teacher. I have learnt physics much that I have immersed myself into an ideal world. Just a quick explanation, in physics, we deal mostly in a controlled environment. I could do the stuff I want in my 1st paragraph of this post, but I have to celebrate the fact that I need to appreciate the external factors that influence my teaching profession. One of the factors I left out from my equation of teaching students physics was time. At the end of the day, I have to prepare my students for their exams, which will prepare them for their SPM. I have to complete the syllabus in time no matter what. We could argue about the exam-oriented policies all we want, but that’s not my main point right now.
Another factor which I regret taking out is the students’ understanding of the subject. I assume the students will all understand the things I say to them the first time they hear them. How easy I forgot how I was as well a student who didn’t have a clue on what’s my teacher’s blabbing in front. I have as well need to take into my consideration that for example in a class of 25 students, there will be students who are quite advanced in their understanding of the topic that it’ll bore them to death if I reduce my pace to cater the students who have difficulties in understanding physics. Not that I feel the students who are quite slow in understanding my teachings to be a burden to me, rather I find those students to be the most interesting as I was in their shoes when I was at school and I’d like to see the happiness in their faces when they finally grab the concepts I wasted (invest maybe?) my saliva on to explain in my class. As I pay my attention to this type of students, the advanced should never be discriminated upon. That’s the challenge. We’re are not at all the same, and I have to give my attention to everyone in my limited space of time, and my physical being, as one man.
* sometimes I do think teaching as an art. Both an art to convince people and to make your audience understand what you’re ‘selling’ and an art of producing this:-
Basically, that’s how the world runs. We can plan all we want, but the randomness still there. The best we could do is to consider as many circumstances as we can and plan on how to tackle the situations. At the end, I’m a human being who could never estimate everything the chaotic world throws at me. It’ll be tiring and sometimes not worth the time spent. That’s why to me personally, the planning is not everything, the way we handle the issue when it arises is also important. That’s something we can brush on. It’s a skill that comes from experience, sometimes from the experience of others. Problems are not to be ignored, they have to be faced. We won’t get full if we don’t eat, as well we won’t have experience if we don’t face our problems.
Tu dia ayat :D :D
Just sharing my 20 shared-by-10-students cents
Cheers :D :D
Monday, October 3, 2011
I listened to this song by Lo, “Operator”, while I was driving one day. I used to not to listen very well to the song but 1 part of the song really spoke to me that day. The song was about a guy who fell in love with a girl, but somehow she changed and he couldn’t really accept the changes in her, as the lyrics suggest “…you broke all the was inside me..”.
Question is what is really there to love?
I used to think about this when I, as a normal human being had a crush on someone, which was years ago (2 days before the dinosaurs extinct to be exact, and still the most bitter way of understanding the world I ever had..). I liked this girl very much that someday I thought about what’s in her that I really want, that I really want to be connected to? Sometimes love is not something you can control. It just happens. The Sun is not something we can control of its existence, it’s just there for us to utilize once we realized how to use the energy released by it, so does love.
If we love someone for his/her attitude, well, that’s not going to last, as people do change. If we love someone for his/her beauty, well, that will never going to last as well, as our definition of beauty will change, same goes for wealth, intelligence, and so on. So what is there to love? What is love? Why are we ‘burdened’ with this uninvited ‘guest’? When I say burdened, it is a burden both when your love is not accepted and even when your love is warmly welcomed by the other party; they’re both heavy for the unprepared.
People say to love for Allah. This is my way of loving for Allah. This might sound stupid, but, it’s how I picture it. Whenever I liked someone for example, I used to draw this line of me connecting to this person and the line continues to Allah. (Pardon the quality of the drawing, super amateur in action).
When I have this mental picture of loving for Allah, one of the advantages is I realized that everything is from Allah, and everything is for Allah. Even if we met the person we truly love, and we’re not the only ones feeling that, and we managed to somehow live with that person, as mortals, we must prepare for the loss of our loved ones (that if we’re not the one answering Allah’s call first). When I have this mental picture of loving for Allah, I know that ultimately, the person I love the most is His, and that person would forever be His, and He borrowed me the pleasure of knowing and living together with this person. Love is not like Hindustan movies. I will try my best not to be bound by love. I will try my best to remind myself that ultimately, only Allah is the one who’ll be there, whenever, wherever, and whatever. The love he borrows, only as a tool to perfect us as human beings, which its existence we shouldn't deny, and hopefully not a tool I would use to bring upon His wrath on me and everything and everyone I care for.
Just sharing my 2cents
Cheers :D :D
p/s – I do wish of marrying someone who could live without facebook. Last thing I want is our private life to be posted on a frequent basis.
p/p/s – … is that p/s necessary? wahaha
I was driving back from Penang to KB when I saw, well, not actually saw, but about 2-3 minutes late from an accident in action at Lebuhraya Timur Barat, around Banjaran Titiwangsa. Smoke rose from the scene which involved a Waja and a motorcycle. I don’t think anyone survived that event. The traffic stalled for about ½ an hour or so and I kept thinking about how devastating the accident was.
Just after passing the scene, I was still thinking about the accident, for the next 5 minutes. After that my attention was back on the road (which what I was supposed to do as a driver). That lead me thinking of how insignificant we are. We think our lives worth everything the sky and the earth can throw at us, but we tend to forget that the world won’t stop spinning, the Sun won’t explode, and even businesses won’t close their deals just because we’re no longer functioning as a human being. But we love to think that we’re the most significant beings and sometimes belittle others just because we see them not as our equals.
Death is a sarcastic comedy. We appreciate the fact that we’ll die someday. We know that we’re mortals. And we even know our average lifespans. But crucial yet very important information held from us is when and how are we going to face our destiny. If life is an equation, death is its constant. It’s no use living out life if we don’t know the crucial constant that matters. We can only guess from experience, we can only guess from symptoms but we cannot be so sure of the exact date or exact event that will lead to our own destruction.
Is what we’re doing right now worth it? If so, how can we be so sure? Have we looked at others who seem very confident with their way of life which we don’t share the same view with? Have we compared with others not the message we’re holding but the actions we’re taking when we firmly believe that we’re holding the truth? Is what we’re doing really worth it?
As someone who believes that there’ll be time of resurrection, I sometimes see life as a cruel drama. “You follow us, or you’ll be condemned to eternity”. When I look at others who share the same view as me but not necessarily the same direction, the rule of the game looks similar.
People might say I should be pitied for not able to make my own decision or even question the road I’m taking. To me, one of the greatest gifts given by the Almighty is the ability to think, the ability to choose right from wrong. The ability and courage to question our way of life before it’s too late. Answers come from questions. We have passed the period when we’re supposed to follow without fully understanding. At the end of the day, we’re responsible for our actions. At the end of the day, we’re responsible for the road we took, and we should use the time given to find out whether what we’re doing is worth our life, before it’s too late.
From dust to dust, and we are surely one heck of an arrogant type of dust.
Just sharing my 2cents.
Cheers :D :D
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Why teaching is one of the most rewarding profession? (For those who’re going to be teachers or are already in this profession or even those who think about being a teacher)
As an untrained teacher for about 7 months now, I found teaching to be a very satisfying job there is. You’re totally in control of your class. You are allowed to shape the students as you please (and with responsibility). You can ‘install’ your ideology to your students. You have people who would listen to your every words and that makes you responsible heavily for every words you utter. You can do anything and sometimes I do ‘abuse’ those privileges. Well, it’s hard to resist the temptation, haha.
For example, I taught my students about waves this week. I wrote on the white board the device I used to demonstrate the topic I was teaching that day. I wrote ‘Elslinkus Springus’ and I asked them to say it out loud, and they did. “Elslinkus Springus!!” they said confidently (perhaps they trust their teacher won’t trick them in any way..wahahaha). I promise you, if you’re their teacher that day, you won’t be able to hold your laugh when you make your students shout ‘Elslinkus Springus’ while what you showed them was a slinky spring.
Students, your innocence marvels me :D!
Teaching rocks :D :D
p/s – I did tell the students afterwards that the thing I was holding was a slinky spring and we had a good laugh :D
slinky spring aka elslinkus springus :p
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
For those who’re born in the same era with me, Dragon Ball used to be a thing of obsession. I used to remember that from this comic I learnt that enemies can be friends when they face a common enemy. Somehow I found it hard to accept this way of thinking when the people you’re fighting with your lives all of a sudden become your comrades. Evil in this comic is relative. When the person is on your side, he/she is a peace defender, but when there’re people who oppose you, then voila, there you are, you had evils to fight with.
We were conquered by the Portuguese, English and Japanese. We learnt from our history one of the main reasons for Portuguese conquest of Malacca was driven by religion. They saw this as a campaign for their ‘White Man’s Burden’ obligation. We saw this as a threat which they come to destroy our society and destroy our system of beliefs. On one side, the people involved see their acts as righteous, on the other hand (victim’s POV) they saw this as evils which need to be driven out. See how one event can be both evil and righteous at the same time. The question is which of the views is the right one? Are our views largely influenced by who do the action rather than whether the action itself ethical no matter who the doers are.
Cheers :D :D
Just sharing my 2 cents
p/s – teaching rocks!! :D :D
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Sometimes I do feel like screaming that I’m so happy for no apparent reason. Just want to share that I do enjoy my life now (Alhamdulillah :D :D). I enjoy teaching!
I’m tired. They call me to come to school at odd hours. I’m supposed to remember @ least around 100 names (per year). I need to prepare for my lectures. Need to prepare for presentations. Need to attend courses. But hey, I enjoy every single drop of my sweat. I enjoy teaching my students. I enjoy expressing myself in class. I LOVE MY JOB!! (Other than the writing reports part la =p ).
People sometimes do complaint that we don’t enjoy overtime allowance, tho we do work overtime, all the time. I say it’s a bless coz I don’t have to count my deeds. I’m not just saying this to comfort myself. I sincerely think this is a very good chance given by Allah to make me a better person, to do everything for Him alone i’Allah. And sincerity doesn’t at all refrain you from enjoying your work, kan :D :D
Alhamdulillah :D :D!!
P/s – Current song: Hey Jude :D :D
p/p/s – the sweetness of a new teacher’s passion. Hope the passion remains, amin :D :D
Just sharing my RM0.02 of randomness :D :D
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Short story on my experience as a new (untrained) teacher
Why teaching suits me (as for now)?
I love giving out my ideas and thoughts to others and teaching satisfies my needs to do so. My new environment also gives me the liberty to be whomever I want, without people (well, not explicitly at least) undermining and looking down on me. The last thing I need is people question (read: look down) why I do things, when the only reason they ask is to make you feel stupid, and not to help you improve yourself.
To be or not to be?
My first day of reporting myself to this school, the Academic’s Vice Principle told me that we (read: teachers) punch in our cards on 0730 and punch out on 1430. Sounds fair enough, aye (aye?..wahahaha)? Well it’s enough to say that 0730-1430 is just a teacher's official working hours, believe me, the unofficial ones weigh the same (if not more). If anyone thinks a teacher’s job is a boring one, well sir, I beg to differ.
Being a teacher (so far..) is very tiring. Tiring in the sense of lots of stuff to be done every week and little that you know, the week just ended and you need to complete certain tasks for the next week. To be more dramatic (from my own experience), you keep on working that you forgot that that day was a public holiday, and you need to come to work (early) the day after, and you wonder, when was the last time you were resting. A teacher must be a good multi-tasker. You don't only teach, you escort your students for their never-ending activities. You're their supervisor (clubs, projects, just name it), whether or not you're good in that area. If you're good, than good on you, if you're not, then, time to use all your available resources to learn. Now, don’t get me wrong, just because I said I’m tired, doesn’t mean I don’t like my job. I LOVE MY JOB!! :D :D.
Teaching is a progressive profession. You do something new each and every day. You teach the students something new and even if you use the same materials for the week, your audience would never be the same. Teaching promotes creativity, for the teachers and students alike. Teaching (so far), suits me well!! You got to love the children to be a teacher. You got to love your audience to be a good presenter. You got to be well prepared to present your ideas/materials to your audience, and that my friends, is the satisfaction in teaching, for me :D.
I can babble for hours about physics to my students. I can relate physics to real life all I want to them. I can promote curiosity to my students. You can try all you want, but you cannot force your students to understand you. You can make the subject interesting, but you can’t make them all understand your ideas. Sometimes you are too eager to present that you forgot that they don’t have a clue on what you’re talking about. That’s a good challenge, to make the students feel the subject as you’re, and when they do, that’ll be my greatest moment as a teacher :D :D
All’s well, or is it?
I love teaching, and I just realized I only love teaching. A teacher is not just hired to teach, they do lots of other stuff as well. My all time weakness, writing reports, is also included in the package. Daily lesson plans, weekly lesson plans, and many other reports which I’m not exposed of yet, might as well kill me. Well, moaning won’t make it better, so, like it or not, here I come :D
Just sharing my 2cents
Cheers :D :D
p/s – I have totally lost my ability to write =(
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
This issue is not a new one, nor it's exclusive to Malaysia. The wave of being open as homosexuals swept the world for the past few years. From celebrities to some unknown guy who posted his sexual orientation in Youtube, they now feel this is the right time if not the best time to tell the world who they are. The time when human rights is championed by many. Everyone feels and have the confidence to show the world who they really are, and it's their right to do so.
It's also to me, an opportunity for us to learn more about them. I think as they are opening themselves to the world regarding to their sexual orientation, serious studies must be conducted to determine whether this phenomena (homosexuality) can be explained (e.g. why do they become homos? (i.e. is it solely based on their decision, or if there's something in our genes that determine the level of our homosexual-ness) or is it a phenomena which we should ignore and live side by side with.
One cannot run from the religion perspective when talking about this issue. The problem with this approach is not everyone aggrees with our religion point of view. It's like a Muslim says to his fellow atheist that he should not eat pork, as it's forbidden in Islam. Why should our atheist friend care? He's not a Muslim. Then we change our approach. We tell them that from medical point of view for example, that porks contain lots of bad bacteria and stuff (I personally dunno, just an example :p)
Same goes with this issue. Just because it's forbidden in Islam, we shouldn't get emotional in dealing with this situation. Muslims nowadays, some only kept their Islam in their name and IC. They know that for example, being a homosexual in Islam is forbidden. That non-marital sex is forbidden. They know that alcohol is forbidden. They just know, yet they can't seem able to control themselves to avoid or stop doing whatever they are doing.
Now, in Islam point of view this's just wrong. The question is, is punishment alone enough to tackle the problem? Just because the Holy Quran gives clear instructions on how to punish these people, doesn't mean it forbids us to study the roots and tackle the roots of the problem instead. Now, get my message clearly. I never meant the Holy Quran to be insufficient or question the authority of the text. Just, if you feel that's what I said, help yourself to read this paragraph again.
It's like, if some religious text says that flu is a sin. Are we going to kill whoever caught the disease blindly? Are we as a Muslim going to agree with that view? Same goes here. It's because we think we hold the truth, and everyone think their version of truth is the truth, the problem arise.
Now, what can we do. Personally, we have to first know what causes people to turn into homosexuality. This is not a new trend. Even the Holy Quran agrees:
"Do ye commit lewdness such as no people in creation (ever) committed before you? For ye practice your lusts on men in preference to women: ye are indeed a people transgressing beyond bounds” HQ, 07:80-81
This verse, taught by Muhammad (SAW) to his followers around 1400 years ago. So why should we be surprised with homosexuality today? We should be surprised that no one seems to have found a concrete reason on why this happen and how it's wrong and if it's wrong, how to prevent or deal with this problem. The people today who usually speak the loudest in condemning this situation, and eager to punish these people, doesn't have the experience other than knowing it's wrong. What if his/her son, is a homosexual? What if his father is actually a homosexual? If he knew that it's wrong, doesn't he want to know how to cure this so-called disease?
For those who think Islam is the way, the truth, and relevant, this is the time to show what has Islam got to offer to curb this problem. This's not an issue for advertising your political rhetoric. Take this issue seriously. Those with knowledge should share their knowledge to help the society.
If I'm going to take my stand, I'm going to say “Gay, is not OK”. This will only lead to the destruction of family institution. Love is sacred. Lust should be guided. For those who are 'straight', don't blindly judge others by their choice of how they live their life. If you think what they do is wrong, morally and spiritually, find a way to learn why it's wrong, and how to guide them who chose this lifestyle to become normal. Nowadays, everything is subjective. The very word “normal” is subjective. If you think what you have is the truth, in this age of reason, learn how to persuade and convince your way of life to others. Preferably, without violence.
Just sharing my 2cents
Cheers :D :D