Guard 'n Conserve

Tgk Movie Sket~ :D :D

2012-02-14T17:05:00.001+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

As usual:"whooaahh, been a while since my last post aye?"

Since my laptop has refused to start on me, I'm now writing on my android machine. A challenge for myself that an android machine can substitute a Windows based laptop on daily work and routine. Let's see how it goes.

Let's get back to business (which is? hahaha). I want to talk about "Menghina Islam". I'm not sure if I can find an English word which well describe the situation in Malaysia. The term "menghina Islam" is widely used no matter how big or small the issue is. "Oi, that's menghina Islam!", "Wey, this's menghina Islam" so on and so forth. We are sensitive when it comes to religion and racial issues. When I say we, I point to those who speak the loudest and heard by and streamed by the mainstream media. I don't know whether they represent the majority of our people, but they speak as if they do, so this is the "we" I'm talking about. Though there are certain things I refused to agree fought by these so called "pejuang bangsa, agama whatsoever", but they seen by others as the representative, as the voice of Islam, Malay, Malaysia, or whatever they want to be known
as.

I watched this malay horror movie last year, Misteri Jalan Karak (i'm not quite sure the real name of the movie :p). What disturbed me back then was how they sell to the people of how we can shoo away demons by reciting the quran. It's not that I'm against the use of the Holy Quran to protect yourself, it's just that the actors and actress who use the verses from the Quran is not, well, Islamic? The term Islamic doesn't mean they have to wear long robes and stuff. The thing that itched me was that they represented themselves as group of students with a free lifestyle. Where a bloke and his girlfriend sit together, touching each other etc. Some people might argue that that's the message the producers want to brought forward. A 'kampung' girl with proper Islamic values, went to the Big City and somehow lost her values, and this event brings her back to her old self. The message is good, the acting's excellent but the moral (islamic la of coz) was not. It's true they're acting, but the fiqh remains. Just because they're acting doesn't mean they're free to do whatever they want.

Another movie I watched was Rasuk. Another movie with Quran 'salesperson'. At the end of the movie, the 'husband' hugs his 'wife' and recite verses from the Quran to free her from the demon. A non muhrim, hugging each other, reciting Quran. What puzzles me is, no one talked about this issue. Where are the so-called pejuang bangsa, agama whatever? I'm not a good person myself, but, this is just absurd. I'm not an expert but Surah at-Taubah, verse 9, rang my mind when I think about this. There're lots other example but, let's just make these 2 as my case study for now. I don't want to go on a rampage to our film industry. If what I felt makes me labelled as a hyper-sensitive person, so be it. I'm far from a perfect person, but this somehow disturbed me.

Just sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

Failure2 Sket~ :D :D

2011-10-09T13:13:00.002+13:00

Assalamualaikum J

I have always wantedto tell my students every time they complained about their low marks I gavethem this:

“I want to letyou experience failure for I believe that to be a very good experience. Youshould never expect your success rate to be 100% in your every attempt inwhatever you’re doing in your life. I have no problem whatsoever in failingyou. I do believe that you will at some point of your life fail in doingsomething. It’s the experience of how to handle failure is important. You cando your best in everything, but not everything is what you’re expected them tobecome. I think school is the best place to experience failure. There are noreal consequences, just raw emotion of failing at something. You shouldexperience failure so you know how it feels to fail, so you would try your bestnot to fail, and even if you do, you know how to handle failure. Failure shouldbe celebrated as the norms of life. Life is full of risk. Experience teaches uswhat risk should be taken and which should be avoided. Calculated risk is notthe same as pure gamble of luck. You should expect to fail, then only you wouldprepare to face your failure, if failure awaits. Failure is one way of telling thatyou’re not going the right direction. Fail now so you won’t fail when itmatters the most, even if you do, you know how to handle them. As people say,prepare your best, expect the worst.”

I know thissounds a little (little??) preachy and dramatic. That’s why I wrote it hereinstead of telling this to my students. I’m not good at telling this verbally,I would die laughing instead, hehe.

If you call me‘cikgu’ and you’re reading up to this paragraph, mark this post somewhere in yourlittle fat between your ears.

Just sharing my2cents

Cheers :D :D

p/s : I am acruel teacher..wahaha

Ngaja2 Sket~ :D :D

2011-10-07T20:00:00.004+13:00

Assalamualaikum J

When I was still in my university years, I used to think about what’s the best way to teach physics to my future students. When I was interviewed by MARA, I told them personally that the best way to teach students physics is to let the students ‘feel’ physics. Let them explore and let them learn from their mistakes and show them how physics is one of the knowledge that give them the space to be creative and try to explain the universe and how it works. Ideally I planned an environment where the students are free to dig the subject, plan their own experiments, and ultimately have the ability to deduce. It doesn’t have to be the right explanation, as long they’re comfortable to share and discuss their ideas, that’ll be just fine. I’d like to make an environment where the students feel safe to pour their thoughts in my class. Where their views are respected and sharing ideas is one of the main elements in my teaching.

How my ideals were quickly crushed, well, not crushed but I quickly realized the challenges, when I started my career as a teacher. I have learnt physics much that I have immersed myself into an ideal world. Just a quick explanation, in physics, we deal mostly in a controlled environment. I could do the stuff I want in my 1^st paragraph of this post, but I have to celebrate the fact that I need to appreciate the external factors that influence my teaching profession. One of the factors I left out from my equation of teaching students physics was time. At the end of the day, I have to prepare my students for their exams, which will prepare them for their SPM. I have to complete the syllabus in time no matter what. We could argue about the exam-oriented policies all we want, but that’s not my main point right now.

Another factor which I regret taking out is the students’ understanding of the subject. I assume the students will all understand the things I say to them the first time they hear them. How easy I forgot how I was as well a student who didn’t have a clue on what’s my teacher’s blabbing in front. I have as well need to take into my consideration that for example in a class of 25 students, there will be students who are quite advanced in their understanding of the topic that it’ll bore them to death if I reduce my pace to cater the students who have difficulties in understanding physics. Not that I feel the students who are quite slow in understanding my teachings to be a burden to me, rather I find those students to be the most interesting as I was in their shoes when I was at school and I’d like to see the happiness in their faces when they finally grab the concepts I wasted (invest maybe?) my saliva on to explain in my class. As I pay my attention to this type of students, the advanced should never be discriminated upon. That’s the challenge. We’re are not at all the same, and I have to give my attention to everyone in my limited space of time, and my physical being, as one man.

* sometimes I do think teaching as an art. Both an art to convince people and to make your audience understand what you’re ‘selling’ and an art of producing this:-

Basically, that’s how the world runs. We can plan all we want, but the randomness still there. The best we could do is to consider as many circumstances as we can and plan on how to tackle the situations. At the end, I’m a human being who could never estimate everything the chaotic world throws at me. It’ll be tiring and sometimes not worth the time spent. That’s why to me personally, the planning is not everything, the way we handle the issue when it arises is also important. That’s something we can brush on. It’s a skill that comes from experience, sometimes from the experience of others. Problems are not to be ignored, they have to be faced. We won’t get full if we don’t eat, as well we won’t have experience if we don’t face our problems.

Tu dia ayat :D :D

Just sharing my 20 shared-by-10-students cents

Cheers :D :D

What to Love :D :D

2011-10-03T14:52:00.004+13:00

Assalamualaikum J

I listened to this song by Lo, “Operator”, while I was driving one day. I used to not to listen very well to the song but 1 part of the song really spoke to me that day. The song was about a guy who fell in love with a girl, but somehow she changed and he couldn’t really accept the changes in her, as the lyrics suggest “…you broke all the was inside me..”.

Question is what is really there to love?

I used to think about this when I, as a normal human being had a crush on someone, which was years ago (2 days before the dinosaurs extinct to be exact, and still the most bitter way of understanding the world I ever had..). I liked this girl very much that someday I thought about what’s in her that I really want, that I really want to be connected to? Sometimes love is not something you can control. It just happens. The Sun is not something we can control of its existence, it’s just there for us to utilize once we realized how to use the energy released by it, so does love.

If we love someone for his/her attitude, well, that’s not going to last, as people do change. If we love someone for his/her beauty, well, that will never going to last as well, as our definition of beauty will change, same goes for wealth, intelligence, and so on. So what is there to love? What is love? Why are we ‘burdened’ with this uninvited ‘guest’? When I say burdened, it is a burden both when your love is not accepted and even when your love is warmly welcomed by the other party; they’re both heavy for the unprepared.

People say to love for Allah. This is my way of loving for Allah. This might sound stupid, but, it’s how I picture it. Whenever I liked someone for example, I used to draw this line of me connecting to this person and the line continues to Allah. (Pardon the quality of the drawing, super amateur in action).

When I have this mental picture of loving for Allah, one of the advantages is I realized that everything is from Allah, and everything is for Allah. Even if we met the person we truly love, and we’re not the only ones feeling that, and we managed to somehow live with that person, as mortals, we must prepare for the loss of our loved ones (that if we’re not the one answering Allah’s call first). When I have this mental picture of loving for Allah, I know that ultimately, the person I love the most is His, and that person would forever be His, and He borrowed me the pleasure of knowing and living together with this person. Love is not like Hindustan movies. I will try my best not to be bound by love. I will try my best to remind myself that ultimately, only Allah is the one who’ll be there, whenever, wherever, and whatever. The love he borrows, only as a tool to perfect us as human beings, which its existence we shouldn't deny, and hopefully not a tool I would use to bring upon His wrath on me and everything and everyone I care for.

Just sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

p/s – I do wish of marrying someone who could live without facebook. Last thing I want is our private life to be posted on a frequent basis.

p/p/s – … is that p/s necessary? wahaha

Price-less sket~ :D :D

2011-10-03T14:51:00.001+13:00

Assalamualaikum J

I was driving back from Penang to KB when I saw, well, not actually saw, but about 2-3 minutes late from an accident in action at Lebuhraya Timur Barat, around Banjaran Titiwangsa. Smoke rose from the scene which involved a Waja and a motorcycle. I don’t think anyone survived that event. The traffic stalled for about ½ an hour or so and I kept thinking about how devastating the accident was.

Just after passing the scene, I was still thinking about the accident, for the next 5 minutes. After that my attention was back on the road (which what I was supposed to do as a driver). That lead me thinking of how insignificant we are. We think our lives worth everything the sky and the earth can throw at us, but we tend to forget that the world won’t stop spinning, the Sun won’t explode, and even businesses won’t close their deals just because we’re no longer functioning as a human being. But we love to think that we’re the most significant beings and sometimes belittle others just because we see them not as our equals.

Death is a sarcastic comedy. We appreciate the fact that we’ll die someday. We know that we’re mortals. And we even know our average lifespans. But crucial yet very important information held from us is when and how are we going to face our destiny. If life is an equation, death is its constant. It’s no use living out life if we don’t know the crucial constant that matters. We can only guess from experience, we can only guess from symptoms but we cannot be so sure of the exact date or exact event that will lead to our own destruction.

Is what we’re doing right now worth it? If so, how can we be so sure? Have we looked at others who seem very confident with their way of life which we don’t share the same view with? Have we compared with others not the message we’re holding but the actions we’re taking when we firmly believe that we’re holding the truth? Is what we’re doing really worth it?

As someone who believes that there’ll be time of resurrection, I sometimes see life as a cruel drama. “You follow us, or you’ll be condemned to eternity”. When I look at others who share the same view as me but not necessarily the same direction, the rule of the game looks similar.

People might say I should be pitied for not able to make my own decision or even question the road I’m taking. To me, one of the greatest gifts given by the Almighty is the ability to think, the ability to choose right from wrong. The ability and courage to question our way of life before it’s too late. Answers come from questions. We have passed the period when we’re supposed to follow without fully understanding. At the end of the day, we’re responsible for our actions. At the end of the day, we’re responsible for the road we took, and we should use the time given to find out whether what we’re doing is worth our life, before it’s too late.

From dust to dust, and we are surely one heck of an arrogant type of dust.

Just sharing my 2cents.

Cheers :D :D

Elslinkus Springus Sket~ :D :D

2011-08-18T12:15:00.004+12:00

Assalamualaikum J

Why teaching is one of the most rewarding profession? (For those who’re going to be teachers or are already in this profession or even those who think about being a teacher)

As an untrained teacher for about 7 months now, I found teaching to be a very satisfying job there is. You’re totally in control of your class. You are allowed to shape the students as you please (and with responsibility). You can ‘install’ your ideology to your students. You have people who would listen to your every words and that makes you responsible heavily for every words you utter. You can do anything and sometimes I do ‘abuse’ those privileges. Well, it’s hard to resist the temptation, haha.

For example, I taught my students about waves this week. I wrote on the white board the device I used to demonstrate the topic I was teaching that day. I wrote ‘Elslinkus Springus’ and I asked them to say it out loud, and they did. “Elslinkus Springus!!” they said confidently (perhaps they trust their teacher won’t trick them in any way..wahahaha). I promise you, if you’re their teacher that day, you won’t be able to hold your laugh when you make your students shout ‘Elslinkus Springus’ while what you showed them was a slinky spring.

Students, your innocence marvels me :D!

Teaching rocks :D :D

p/s – I did tell the students afterwards that the thing I was holding was a slinky spring and we had a good laugh :D

slinky spring aka elslinkus springus :p

Relativity of Life :D :D

2011-08-10T12:25:00.003+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)

‘Relative’ is basically a word we use to compare things. For example the theory of relativity which assert the idea that time and space are both non-absolute concept. In other words, they’re relative concept which depends on the observer’s frame of reference. Find it’s hard to imagine? Let’s take a look at another example.

Example 2:
For those who’re born in the same era with me, Dragon Ball used to be a thing of obsession. I used to remember that from this comic I learnt that enemies can be friends when they face a common enemy. Somehow I found it hard to accept this way of thinking when the people you’re fighting with your lives all of a sudden become your comrades. Evil in this comic is relative. When the person is on your side, he/she is a peace defender, but when there’re people who oppose you, then voila, there you are, you had evils to fight with.

So what is enemy then? To me an enemy is a person or a group of people or organization or whatever which their aim or mission or vision is different than ours. They’re not just different, they threat the very existence of our lives, the threat to our survival (be it politics, economics etc.). The question is, just because their ideology might seem different or parasitic even, do we have the right to eliminate them? What makes us superior in term of existence? Just because we’re here before they do?

Remember what Muhammad PBUH did to the Meccans. Muhammad PBUH was born in a society where worshipping idols were their way of life. When Muhammad PBUH arrived he suggested a way of life which was different from what the Meccans used to. He even destroyed the idols of the Meccans when He and His army of Muslims entered Kaaba in ‘Fathul Makkah’. As a Muslim we see this as a victory where Islam has finally been accepted in Mecca. That’s it, nothing more or nothing less to talk or think about. When a Muslim army conquered a nation, we said it’s good because the light of Islam is spreading.

Let’s have this situation for a change.
We were conquered by the Portuguese, English and Japanese. We learnt from our history one of the main reasons for Portuguese conquest of Malacca was driven by religion. They saw this as a campaign for their ‘White Man’s Burden’ obligation. We saw this as a threat which they come to destroy our society and destroy our system of beliefs. On one side, the people involved see their acts as righteous, on the other hand (victim’s POV) they saw this as evils which need to be driven out. See how one event can be both evil and righteous at the same time. The question is which of the views is the right one? Are our views largely influenced by who do the action rather than whether the action itself ethical no matter who the doers are.

The scenario for the question above is simple. Just imagine if we are living in a peaceful country govern by non-Muslims. If there is an army from a Muslim country advancing towards our capital, with what they claim to spread Islam towards our nation. Where our loyalty would lies? Are we going to defend our motherland, or to join the army and become a traitor to our motherland and our people? Just because the advancing armies were Muslims, do we blindly follow them?

Even the word Muslims has to be redefined. Who is a Muslim? The person who practices Islam. Next question, what version of Islam? What are you talking about, there’s only one version of Islam. I’d say how naïve. If not naïve I’d say how hypocritical. We say there’s only one version of Islam, our version. A Shiite for example would say their version of Islam is the truth. Some other groups would say the same. Yet we still think that there’s only one Islam, even though we somehow acknowledge the other groups of version of Islam which doesn’t confirm with our beliefs also as Muslims. And we claim there’s only 1 Islam, and 1 Ummah. Remember relativity, now, with relative to the non-Muslims, they would say Islam is not 1. How can we blame them as we’re the one who is closing one eye to this issue?

What’s the value of Islam that we have today, that we claim and hope to be our savior in the hereafter? How long have it been since Muhammad PBUH died? How can we be sure that our version of Islam is The One when Islam came to us not from the mouth of Muhammad PBUH himself? Even if the version of Islam when it came to us is The One, how can we be so sure that the same version is passed down for how many generations till it reached us? From what I can see, we’re trained to be bigots. Not to use Islam that inherited to us as a stepping stone to find the truth rather we believe without proper understandings that we’re holding the truth and the others are not, and we’re willing to die for that. What if we’re to be awoken after our death that we’ve been barking up the wrong tree? How many of us tried to find out whether what we have today is the truth? How many of us are willing to sacrifice everything and anything to defend what we belief is the truth, without really finding out whether our version of the truth is the truth? I find the latter to be the most popular.

Why I keep on writing this kind of topic. Honestly I’m frustrated with the situations of Islam today. People are more interested in finding out who are not ‘guided’ by searching for people who are different from them. People nowadays also interested in advertising their ibadah while little that they realized, they’re doing the ibadah not solely for Allah, but for people to see and to judge. Isn’t this a type of syirik? Doing your ibadah for other than Allah (we can surely debate on this, but I have little mood on doing so). Suggesting to people of how good we’re by advertising our limited knowledge of Islam. Islam supposed to elevate our position in the society, but lots of us today use Islam as a stepping stone to gain status in our society. How low can we be? Seriously, how low can we be? I look high to Islam. To me Islam is a sacred garden which shouldn’t be tainted, like a forest reserve, Islam should be left as it is. Islam is politics, Islam is culture, Islam is everything. What I see now, Islam is influenced by politics, Islam is influenced by cultures, Islam is influenced by everything. After knowing lots of people who claim to know Islam, I find it hard to believe those who claim to know Islam. After seeing people interpret Islam as they see fit, I find it hard to believe those who interpret Islam. After seeing the true colour of people who seemed to be ideal Muslims, or those who advertise themselves as good Muslims, I find it hard to not being critical to those who seemed to be Islamic. Am I writing gibberish? Maybe. Am I spouting nonsense? Up to you. This is what I think, and this is what I feel.

Cheers :D :D
Just sharing my 2 cents

p/s – teaching rocks!! :D :D

What’s Wrong? :D :D

2011-07-17T12:14:00.001+12:00

Assalamualaikum,

I think we learn with every breath we take in. We are becoming more mature with every step we take, and hopefully becoming wiser as we grow older. What an introduction..hahaha

What is wrong?

For the sake of writing this topic, I define wrong as something not right. What is right then? Is right objective? Can one’s right be others’ wrong? Can both right and wrong exist together at the same time?

I brought some students for a trip last week, and as usual, I talked to them, provoke their thoughts and sometimes even belittle their ideas, just to see how they would react. I never realized the significance of my jokes until just now. They’re 3 students in my car, all of them Kelantanese. I told them that Kelantanese cannot read well. Heck, they cannot read at all, and they denied that. Well I gave them one example, “how do you pronounce T.U.M.P.A.T.” I asked. One of them instinctively answered my question without much thought, “Tupak”, she said. Gotcha! And I gave one example after another and we had good laughs.

Well while driving to my friend’s wedding today, I gave this a little thought. What if the ‘standard’ BM spelled those words wrongly? It’s their language after all, and the ‘standard’ spellings came long after the words existed (another good topic to discuss..hehe) and I arrogantly said that Kelantanese cannot read, while maybe the spelling is not right to begin with.

Or maybe the spellings are right, and the pronunciations are correct. It’s how they pronounce those words, and just because the way I pronounce them different doesn’t make their pronunciations wrong. Maybe we both right though the way I was raised, the pronunciations they made were not. That’s what I meant with both right and wrong coexists. Does that mean that right and wrong are not objective after all? The things we perceive as right and wrong might as well relative. It all depends on the eye of the beholder. It all depends, on the values they’re raised with. It’s not at all fixed.

Then, why should we impose the things we believe as the truth to others. Why do we ignorantly without any thoughts laugh at others when their values seem different than us? For example, we Muslims cannot eat pork. Pork and Muslims are like nemesis. We don’t eat pork, we don’t want to touch pork, and we don’t want to have anything to do with pork. We even offended when we are related in any way with pork. When someone gave us pork as a gift, we say that’s an insult towards Islam as a whole (tho it’s not that relevant). The thing is it’s us who see pork as something that needs to be distanced with. It’s our culture, and we need people to understand and respect that culture. Fair enough.

Then why do we freely insult others’ beliefs? For instance, we have no problem, no guilt whatsoever when we make jokes about Hindus don’t eat meat. Do we really care why they cannot do things we can? We don’t even know why they don’t eat meat. We don’t even care. It’s not our problem. Not affecting our lives.

Guess what, that’s what others thought about our belief. They don’t give a damn. We expect them to know every single thing about us, things that might offend us, but do we care to do the same? We are an arrogant bunch. We think we hold the Ultimate Truth that others’ values are not to be treated as we wish others would do to us. We don’t even dare to question the validity of our faith we inherit from our forefathers, yet we rubbish others’ belief.

I don’t know why my writings lately would somehow converge towards this topic. Back to the right-wrong thingy.

People are afraid to express their ideas because they have no confidence of what they’re going to say. We also are afraid of others saying what we’re saying is wrong. What can we do? Well, we can start from us. Treat people as we want others to treat us. In a discussion, listen to what the others are saying. And by listening I meant, LISTEN. Itching to ditch what they’re saying because you know that’s wrong, or because it’s different from what you think? Be patient. Talk politely after the other party has finished what they’re saying, because we might be as wrong or as right as what the others are saying. When this respect needs is fulfilled, people can express their views freely and openly. We can’t change others, this should all start with us. We should practice to create this environment.

Well then, what can we do when others don’t give the same respect we gave them? One way is to be open to criticism (specially dedicated to me). We cannot be corrected if we don’t do anything wrong. To be corrected, we must do something wrong first. And to do wrong, or to confirm whether what we have is right, it needs bravery. Listen to others and be open to criticism. Easier said than done. Good luck!

Just sharing my (seramas/25) :D :D

p/s – good luck?wahaha, my writings sure is getting weirder.

(|= (|= ~tekS modnaR

2011-06-20T16:05:00.003+12:00

Assalamualaikum :D

Sometimes I do feel like screaming that I’m so happy for no apparent reason. Just want to share that I do enjoy my life now (Alhamdulillah :D :D). I enjoy teaching!

I’m tired. They call me to come to school at odd hours. I’m supposed to remember @ least around 100 names (per year). I need to prepare for my lectures. Need to prepare for presentations. Need to attend courses. But hey, I enjoy every single drop of my sweat. I enjoy teaching my students. I enjoy expressing myself in class. I LOVE MY JOB!! (Other than the writing reports part la =p ).

People sometimes do complaint that we don’t enjoy overtime allowance, tho we do work overtime, all the time. I say it’s a bless coz I don’t have to count my deeds. I’m not just saying this to comfort myself. I sincerely think this is a very good chance given by Allah to make me a better person, to do everything for Him alone i’Allah. And sincerity doesn’t at all refrain you from enjoying your work, kan :D :D

Alhamdulillah :D :D!!

Teaching rocks!

P/s – Current song: Hey Jude :D :D

p/p/s – the sweetness of a new teacher’s passion. Hope the passion remains, amin :D :D

Just sharing my RM0.02 of randomness :D :D

Sir? Teacher la :D :D

2011-04-05T02:59:00.006+12:00

Assalamualaikum J

Short story on my experience as a new (untrained) teacher

Why teaching suits me (as for now)?

I love giving out my ideas and thoughts to others and teaching satisfies my needs to do so. My new environment also gives me the liberty to be whomever I want, without people (well, not explicitly at least) undermining and looking down on me. The last thing I need is people question (read: look down) why I do things, when the only reason they ask is to make you feel stupid, and not to help you improve yourself.

To be or not to be?

My first day of reporting myself to this school, the Academic’s Vice Principle told me that we (read: teachers) punch in our cards on 0730 and punch out on 1430. Sounds fair enough, aye (aye?..wahahaha)? Well it’s enough to say that 0730-1430 is just a teacher's official working hours, believe me, the unofficial ones weigh the same (if not more). If anyone thinks a teacher’s job is a boring one, well sir, I beg to differ.

Being a teacher (so far..) is very tiring. Tiring in the sense of lots of stuff to be done every week and little that you know, the week just ended and you need to complete certain tasks for the next week. To be more dramatic (from my own experience), you keep on working that you forgot that that day was a public holiday, and you need to come to work (early) the day after, and you wonder, when was the last time you were resting. A teacher must be a good multi-tasker. You don't only teach, you escort your students for their never-ending activities. You're their supervisor (clubs, projects, just name it), whether or not you're good in that area. If you're good, than good on you, if you're not, then, time to use all your available resources to learn. Now, don’t get me wrong, just because I said I’m tired, doesn’t mean I don’t like my job. I LOVE MY JOB!! :D :D.

Teaching is a progressive profession. You do something new each and every day. You teach the students something new and even if you use the same materials for the week, your audience would never be the same. Teaching promotes creativity, for the teachers and students alike. Teaching (so far), suits me well!! You got to love the children to be a teacher. You got to love your audience to be a good presenter. You got to be well prepared to present your ideas/materials to your audience, and that my friends, is the satisfaction in teaching, for me :D.

I can babble for hours about physics to my students. I can relate physics to real life all I want to them. I can promote curiosity to my students. You can try all you want, but you cannot force your students to understand you. You can make the subject interesting, but you can’t make them all understand your ideas. Sometimes you are too eager to present that you forgot that they don’t have a clue on what you’re talking about. That’s a good challenge, to make the students feel the subject as you’re, and when they do, that’ll be my greatest moment as a teacher :D :D

All’s well, or is it?

I love teaching, and I just realized I only love teaching. A teacher is not just hired to teach, they do lots of other stuff as well. My all time weakness, writing reports, is also included in the package. Daily lesson plans, weekly lesson plans, and many other reports which I’m not exposed of yet, might as well kill me. Well, moaning won’t make it better, so, like it or not, here I come :D

Conclusion

Teaching rocks!

Just sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

p/s – I have totally lost my ability to write =(

How ar (#2) :D :D?

2011-01-26T01:27:00.003+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

How I envy those who knows the truth,

How I envy those who feels safe when they believe their version of truth is the truth

How I envy those who have the courage to change their strong beliefs for something new

How I envy those who have the urge to find the truth

How I pity those who belittled by others just by enquiring for the truth

How I find it's hard to know which is the truth,

When we conviniently say others cannot be more wrong and vice-versa

What if we find it's too late when we realized we've been barking up the wrong tree?

I just..don't know :(

"Guide us to the Straight Way" - HQ 01:06 -

Just sharing my RM0.02

Cheers :D :D

Tolerate or Celebrate? :D :D

2011-01-06T18:07:00.010+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

This is one of the things I kept thinking about, but have little confidence writing as I’m not sure if what I’ll write fully represent my thoughts. I used to think that if I don’t have the right words, or inspiration to write about an issue that bugs me much, maybe because it’s just not the right time to write it down. Or maybe, I’m just not good enough with words, period. See, even the intro seems weird enough. It’s kind of annoying when you have things to say, and to you, it’s very important, but you just don’t know how to put it in words. Nevertheless, I’ll try my best so my thoughts won’t just end up being, well, thoughts. I’m just going to put a disclaimer before anyone reads this post.

“This is not an easy-to-digest post. Not to say I’m too advance that people don’t understand, instead, because of my lack of skills in vomiting out my thoughts.”

Here goes..

Tolerate or celebrate in this post refers to our treatment to people who have different point of view in life than us, that might be inspired by religion, culture, political interest, etc. The problem is how we deal with these people.

I love this one particular Christian based (as they claim) conspiracy forum. The thing that I want to emphasize is how they (well, some..) despise Islam. They work hard to find evidence in Youtube, any news articles, any events that can relate Islam to violence. The Westerners (again, some..) fear that Islam would conquer their nation. These people would cherry pick the verses in the Quran, Hadith, or statements by some unknown so-called Imam that support violent. They spread the fear that Shariah would crush their society. The saddest thing of all is the misinformation spreads and people have this bad image of Islam, and they stereotyped Muslims. Sounds like I’m a bit defensive?

Let’s talk about Malaysia. I’m going to talk about the Muslims society in Malaysia, as I’m raised within this community. The situation where Islam is the Agama Rasmi (okay, have no idea what to call this in English now :p). What have we been told since our childhood? For example, Christianity movements threat this country. They move from town to town, even to rural areas, where the MPs don’t even know exist (I’m a bit exaggerating here..). They help the people; build schools and hospitals so that they can convert the people they help. In Malaysia, we have to admit, that we’re so sensitive with this issue, especially the Muslims. We say a lot of bad stuff about other religions. We have this negative image embedded in our mind when we talk about other religions. But do we really understand them? Or do we just judge them based from what the people, our old men, talk about them? Or do we just judge them because we believe their religions hold no value because we believe ours is the truth? Just because we believe we are blessed with the truth, doesn’t mean we have the right to mislead people to hate others who have different opinion about life, do we? Okay, now, where am I going..?

The worst thing in Malaysia, to me, is we let our ignorance lead our life. I’m talking to the Muslim Malays especially (and to others as well..). We tend to generalize people based on their ethnicity. We sometimes don’t even know the difference between a race, a country and a faith. For example, how many of us haven’t heard the term ‘Cina’ coined to identify non-Muslims? One might argue that this is just a casual term that has nothing to do with generalizing them to be non-Muslims. Well sir, with that attitude I’m going to say that we lack the empathy, and being selfish that expect others to respect our feelings, but not willing to share that sentiment with others. (These two situations (i.e. ignorance in religions and ethnicities, esp. in Malaysia) are a big concern to me that they need a special post themselves, maybe later..)

Now, the question is why is this happening. For those who cannot see, or prefer to turn their one eye off, this is happening all around the globe. My personal view is this is the classic example where the majority abuses the minority. Simple as that. Where one’s might defined by their numbers, where the public (i.e. the majority) has certain views (usually negative) towards others who are a bit different. This is usually done by those who claim to be the rightful owner of a place, or a country, and hold the majority in their society. Like I said earlier, this is not exclusive to Malaysia. It’s happening all over the world. From the third world countries to the most powerful country on Earth right now. They call for the minorities to return to wherever they came from (sound familiar?); even when they were born and they pledge their allegiance to the country they currently reside. Isn’t this just stupid? To me, these people just demonstrate their very limited knowledge of history, or justify their ill-treatment to others based from their anecdotes, and turn a blind eye to see the bigger and complete picture of the world history. Have these people who feel they’re strong, they are the righteous lord of a country, that they’re free to say whatever they want, do whatever they please to these minorities been minorities themselves? Well, shame on them if they have, that they don’t take any lessons from that.

We Muslims will all boil up if there is news that Muslims were treated badly. Our brothers and sisters were killed in Palestine (some argue that Palestine doesn’t even exist, well, in that case you know the place I’m referring to). But what do we feel, for example to the current church bombing in Egypt, supposedly done by Muslims? Don’t we realize how angry the Christians are? They would just say that this is another proof of the ‘Religion of Peace’ in action. Are we going to just sit silently, and treat this as just another news on TV, as this has nothing to do with us? Nothing to do with us? Really? Don’t we want to at least know what really happened and study if it’s justified in Islam? My point is, we’re all human beings with feelings and emotions. As we can get angry if something bad happening to us, so do others. So treat others with respect. Just because we are the majority in an area, doesn’t mean we can silence the minority. Remember, if we want to play this majority-minority game, no one would win. It’s our nature to find the differences between us, as this classic joke points out:

I was walking across a bridge one day, and I saw a man standing on the edge, about to jump off.

So I ran over and said, "Stop! Don't do it!" "Why shouldn't I?" he said.

I said, "Well, there's so much to live for!" He said, "Like what?"

I said, "Well, are you religious or atheist?" He said, "Religious."

I said, "Me too! Are your Christian or Buddhist?" He said, "Christian."

I said, "Me too! Are you Catholic or Protestant?" He said, "Protestant."

I said, Me too! Are your Episcopalian or Baptist? He said, "Baptist!"

I said, "Wow! Me too! Are your Baptist Church of God or Baptist Church of the Lord? He said, Baptist Church of God!"

I said, "Me too! Are your Original Baptist Church of God or are you Reformed Baptist Church of God?" He said, "Reformed Baptist Church of God!"

I said, "Me too! Are you Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1879, or Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1915?" He said, "Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1915!"

I said, "Die, heretic scum!" and pushed him off

Hence, lesson learnt? This stupidity must stop now!

Now, I don’t think this post will contribute positively towards the society. I’m not sure if people even understand what I was trying to say. One thing I’m sure of is; I think this is an important topic. There’re just times when I feel like sharing this concern with others, but I just don’t know how to convert these thoughts into words, and this post is a perfect example of that.

So, are we going to tolerate or celebrate our differences? The choice is ours.

Just sharing my $0.02

Cheers :D :D

p/s – This might be my lamest post, with weird terms (e.g. anecdotes? Do I use that correctly?) and well, as usual, my grammar. Haih..

Gay n OK :D :D

2011-01-02T16:35:00.007+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

This issue is not a new one, nor it's exclusive to Malaysia. The wave of being open as homosexuals swept the world for the past few years. From celebrities to some unknown guy who posted his sexual orientation in Youtube, they now feel this is the right time if not the best time to tell the world who they are. The time when human rights is championed by many. Everyone feels and have the confidence to show the world who they really are, and it's their right to do so.

It's also to me, an opportunity for us to learn more about them. I think as they are opening themselves to the world regarding to their sexual orientation, serious studies must be conducted to determine whether this phenomena (homosexuality) can be explained (e.g. why do they become homos? (i.e. is it solely based on their decision, or if there's something in our genes that determine the level of our homosexual-ness) or is it a phenomena which we should ignore and live side by side with.

One cannot run from the religion perspective when talking about this issue. The problem with this approach is not everyone aggrees with our religion point of view. It's like a Muslim says to his fellow atheist that he should not eat pork, as it's forbidden in Islam. Why should our atheist friend care? He's not a Muslim. Then we change our approach. We tell them that from medical point of view for example, that porks contain lots of bad bacteria and stuff (I personally dunno, just an example :p)

Same goes with this issue. Just because it's forbidden in Islam, we shouldn't get emotional in dealing with this situation. Muslims nowadays, some only kept their Islam in their name and IC. They know that for example, being a homosexual in Islam is forbidden. That non-marital sex is forbidden. They know that alcohol is forbidden. They just know, yet they can't seem able to control themselves to avoid or stop doing whatever they are doing.

Now, in Islam point of view this's just wrong. The question is, is punishment alone enough to tackle the problem? Just because the Holy Quran gives clear instructions on how to punish these people, doesn't mean it forbids us to study the roots and tackle the roots of the problem instead. Now, get my message clearly. I never meant the Holy Quran to be insufficient or question the authority of the text. Just, if you feel that's what I said, help yourself to read this paragraph again.

It's like, if some religious text says that flu is a sin. Are we going to kill whoever caught the disease blindly? Are we as a Muslim going to agree with that view? Same goes here. It's because we think we hold the truth, and everyone think their version of truth is the truth, the problem arise.

Now, what can we do. Personally, we have to first know what causes people to turn into homosexuality. This is not a new trend. Even the Holy Quran agrees:

"Do ye commit lewdness such as no people in creation (ever) committed before you? For ye practice your lusts on men in preference to women: ye are indeed a people transgressing beyond bounds” HQ, 07:80-81

This verse, taught by Muhammad (SAW) to his followers around 1400 years ago. So why should we be surprised with homosexuality today? We should be surprised that no one seems to have found a concrete reason on why this happen and how it's wrong and if it's wrong, how to prevent or deal with this problem. The people today who usually speak the loudest in condemning this situation, and eager to punish these people, doesn't have the experience other than knowing it's wrong. What if his/her son, is a homosexual? What if his father is actually a homosexual? If he knew that it's wrong, doesn't he want to know how to cure this so-called disease?

For those who think Islam is the way, the truth, and relevant, this is the time to show what has Islam got to offer to curb this problem. This's not an issue for advertising your political rhetoric. Take this issue seriously. Those with knowledge should share their knowledge to help the society.

If I'm going to take my stand, I'm going to say “Gay, is not OK”. This will only lead to the destruction of family institution. Love is sacred. Lust should be guided. For those who are 'straight', don't blindly judge others by their choice of how they live their life. If you think what they do is wrong, morally and spiritually, find a way to learn why it's wrong, and how to guide them who chose this lifestyle to become normal. Nowadays, everything is subjective. The very word “normal” is subjective. If you think what you have is the truth, in this age of reason, learn how to persuade and convince your way of life to others. Preferably, without violence.

Just sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

IF.. :D :D~

2010-10-02T10:34:00.002+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

We often hear that if Islam is based solely on its so-called followers, people would run away and even hate Islam. Personally, If Islam is based on its follower, me myself have long left Islam. The thing that kept me from doing so is I believe Islam should be based on its teachings, not the actions of its followers. The bad apples who freely claim they represent Islam, defending the religion should stop doing so and keep on learning and please, keep your profiles low. Do not suggest to others who you not really are. Hypocrisy is not a good thing, at all.

Jz sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

Hippo..badak? :D :D

2010-09-01T06:16:00.093+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I've been wanting to post this, but I can't seem to find good words or examples without pointing to others. So, like I said in my earlier post, if you don't have good things to say (or write..), shut ya yap. If I can't point to others neutrally, I shouldn't point at all. By pointing others, we're pointing to ourselves as well.

I think this is a good reminder for all, especially in this holy month of Ramadhan. May we reflect ourselves, i'Allah, and do our things, our ibadah for Him, and ONLY Him i'Allah, without the slightest intention of doing the ibadah to get acknowledgement, compliments, etc from others.

We live to serve Him alone, and our ibadah, our lives should only be for Him, i'Allah:

From Google..

Definitions of hypocrite on the Web:

a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives
wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

Hypocrisy is the act of persistently pretending to hold beliefs, opinions, virtues, feelings, qualities, or standards that one does not actually hold. Hypocrisy is thus a kind of lie.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypocrite

hypocritical - deceptive, just pretending to be good, as in: It is hypocritical to say tell your children to behave a certain way and then do the exact opposite yourself.
www.business-words.com/dictionary/H.html

May we reflect upon ourselves. We are NOT perfect. Thus, If we can find (and we will) even a trace of hypocrisy in our lives, especially in our ibadah, especially in Islamic matters (for we only hope to get rewarded by Allah..rite?), hopefully, we can wash this negative element away by instilling sincerity.

Teach ourselves (okie..now I'm confused when to use ourselves n ourself..huhu) to do things for Allah, without expecting our fellow human beings complimenting us, have certain views about us. Let people misjudge if they want (when we do good things of course..), for their judgement won't help us when we face Allah. Don't let ourselves sink even deeper, trying as hard as we can to please others, or to impress others, ESPECIALLY in religious matters. Truly, there's no benefit in impressing people while we should do our best impressing Allah :).

By saying this, we shouldn't do our best ignoring other people either. As we should preserve the relationship amongst us, His servants, and our relationship between us and Allah. And let not the thoughts of people judging us hypocrite making us stop doing good things, or stop trying our best to be a better person. Other person's opinion won't matter in the Day of Judgement, as long we remember the 1st hadith of Imam Nawawi's compilation of 40 Hadiths, "..Actions are judged by intentions..". May we reflect all our deeds. May we reflect if we're really doing our best for Allah.

Hope my points are delivered.

Jz sharing my 2cents

Cheers :D :D

(somehow this post sounds like a direct translation from Malay to English..hahaha)

How Ar? :D :D

2010-08-25T00:53:00.003+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Okie, less than 24 hours after my previous post, come another. Then a few months of hiatus, hehe (I hope not :p)

I'm tired, and my brain begs me to stop and sleep, but the same brain suggests I should stay awake and finish up the report and prepare for the test. 2 tests, 3 assignments. The university sure know how to suck the most of your effort before they allow you to go for a short holiday (aka study break..)

Late at night, my brain wont function as it should in daytime. It's like there's a set of random topics flashing in front of me waiting for me to pick any one of 'em and dig further.

Tonight's topic of choice (drums rolling..):

How do we know we're right?

I can't find the right tone on how to start this topic..huhuhu..I'll try being as straight forward as I can. Yosh! Sototaarto!

How often do we hear people say how lucky we're born as a Muslim? Islam is the way of life, Islam will save you, all that stuff. How do we really know we're barking on the right tree? How can we really confirm that other people with different faith as ours weren't as 'lucky' as we're? Why do some people judge a person as if they can be really sure they're on the right path and the other person will be damned to hell (forever~), if that person never do any open-minded, honest research, and just depending on other peoples work?

Why do people easily judge a Muslim based on whether they're Sunni, or Shiite? Why do a Sunni sometimes easily mock the other person just because they pray differently. How do they know they're the one with the right 'method' of praying. What if they're wrong? Why should there be a different between a Sunni and a Shiite? Who coined that term in the first place? Are the Sunni really sure they're practising the original Islam that's brought forward by Prophet Muhammad SAW?

What if the people who mock the other person because they're from a different school of thoughts of Islam, been born in the opposite camp? Will they do their best to find the right path? Are we doing our best to check whether or not we're on the winning (in the herefter) side? Or do we just blindly believe we're the right ones because we're being told so?

What if we're born in a different environment, different faith. Will we do our best to do research whether we are following the truth? Or will we just strengthen our faith (whether or not it's the truth) and start preaching. What if we preached the wrong idea? Who are we to say those Christians missionaries are bringing false messages? Who are they to say Muslims are a bunch of uncivilized, blood-thirsty souls who need to be saved? Do people really care if they're on the right side? Or do we really care on defending our beliefs whether or not it's the truth, just by being confident that we're on the right side?

How many of us are willing to take an honest journey for the truth? We all know the fate for the unbelievers in the hereafter, no matter what religion you're in. Are we afraid to find out if the religion we're in right now are not the right one?As for me, sure I am.

May He showers His blessings and mercy upon us. Pray so we're enlightened and guided so we can see clearly and distinguish good from evil.

Cheers :D

Just sharing my 2 cents :D :D

D: D: sdoolf natsikap

2010-08-24T23:39:00.015+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

As for a standard opening for a long time inactive blog. “fuuhh, been a very while since my last update..”. People say if you got nothing good to say, well, shut ya yap. Same goes if u got nothin good to write, OR, if ur lazy enough to write. Lazy to write leads to lazy to think of what to write leads to lazy to think and leads to brain idle which is not very2 good. So, here goes..

First off, happy Ramadhan. Another Ramadhan abroad for me. Another period when I'm in lab when every one else prepares for their iftar. Sad? Tired? A little, but I'm quite excited as well, as I'm not sure when (and where) else can I gain this kind of experience, yes? As usual, this is the period of the year when the prayer room will be full (for iftar..what else :p). Not a very bad thing really, at least people come to the prayer room and perform the prayer together, nicee~

Just because I don't write, doesn't mean I don't know bout our world kan. Big flood in Pakistan for example, they're gonna need billions of dollars to recover. Any idea how big a billion is? As we're still in the month of Ramadhan, it's somehow a blessing for us to be given such an opportunity to help our brothers and sisters there. And this can serve as a great reminder for us as well, as Allah promised in His Book:

“Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil)” (2:155)

Wallaweh rite? He promised to test us with fear, hunger, loss in goods or lives. Come to think about it, when was the last time we were tested with those things? When was the last time we were tested with hunger, without knowing when exactly can we fill our stomach? Not the I-don't-have-anything-to-eat-but-Maggie type of hunger. When was the last time we were tested with sudden loss of everything we hold dear? At least our brothers and sisters in Pakistan, Gaza, West Bank, and everywhere else have already tasted the promised made by Allah Himself. We, who are still in a very comfortable blanket of safety should be worry for we don't know when and how will we be tested (and how we will react).

So, what should we do? Sit and think about the unknown that might happen? Well, that's not a bad idea, if that's not the only thing we do. We can prepare whatsoever, but what about our brothers and sisters who are already in dire need for help? That's when we, the ones who are still 'saved' ('saved' - as safety is a kind of test, if you think about it..) from those disasters, come into picture. HELP THEM for the mercy of Allah!! It's pretty obvious, rite?

Cheers :D

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Jz sharing my 2 cents :D :D

Graduation Pom Pom Pom :D :D

2010-05-12T21:59:00.002+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..(fuuh fuuh~ byknye sawang blog neh..huhu)

This post is dedicated to the graduates of University of Auckland class of 2009. I'm not good with words, have long lost touch producing good arguments and essays. So, congratulations to all graduates :D :D, whether or not you guys made it to the graduation ceremony, the fact you guys were once here that matters. All the memories and hardships, the fun and sad moments, bla bla bla.. (being lazy to describe :p). Celebrating Aidilfitri together away from home, struggling together to finish up seemingly endless course works, the same face I see everyday..haha. You guys are the best, only second to my own family. If only people can just read minds, so I don't have to write lengthy words just to express my gratitude. Well, you guys are totally irreplaceable!! You guys make Auckland feels like Kajang to me, even better. I really am hoping that I won't forget the memories here, well, I'm an expert at forgetting things, unfortunately (sigh~). So brain, if you can hear my thoughts now, please, don't forget this.

To Imran, Abah, Luqman and their band of engineers, Safwan and the gang of educators, Nizam, Meor, and many more. Congratulations!! May this success by no means stopping you guys from achieving more :). Yosh!!

p/s – Living in Auckland somehow made me realizes no matter how much we love this place, no matter how much memories it represent, we'll have to someday return to Malaysia (or we can definitely stay, that's another unrelated topic to discuss :p). Seems time has no regards of who we are, and we're totally bounded by its rule, no matter how much we want it to stop and would really want to enjoy the time here without much regrets or the fear that this will all end. At the end, a visitor needs to do what he do best, leave. The same can be said about life in general, rite :), because that's who we really are, visitors to this wonderful planet we call home :). wallaweh~ :p

Ktak..Bom (Murphy's Law in action)

2009-12-24T11:55:00.028+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

23 December 2009

0730:

Received an order from bapak to buy a new cooking gas cylinder (wasn't the current one jz bought bout a week ago? No matter..)

1430:

Since I'm in no mood of cookin, and the fact that I can survive for a day without eating, I decided to buy that cylinder a lil bit late. Went to the grocery and order a cylinder

1500:

The grocery guy came with the cylinder. Was going to replace the old cylinder with the new one. “funny, the current one seems to be still heavy..”. [Malay McGyver Mode: ON]. After a few amateur-like inspection, I found the 'issue'. There's this turner on the hose connecting the cylinder to the stove. It's completely closed. So I turned it anti-clockwise to turn it on, so the gas could flow. Heard the gas hissing, and I said to myself, “that's the problem”.

Seemed to me I'm right. lit the stove and the fire came out. Then the fire went smaller before it went off altogether.

“Erm, I jz need to turn the knob (the turner that needs to be turned anti-clockwise..) even more”. I turned off the stove and went to watch some tv, knowing what the 'problem' was.

1730:

Knowing there's no problem with the stove, I decided to boil water to make Milo. “Ktak, Ktak” the stove flickered but no fire. “Ooh, the hose..”. I turned the knob anti clock-wise, all the way, knowing that when I turn the knob a little, the fire jz came out for a short period of time.

Heard the hissing. “Great, the gas is flowing..”. Turn the knob on the stove, “Ktak..Kbooff”. There's this big fire. Not that shocked at first, coz I thought the fire would subside. It took me jz about 1 second to convince me I'm wrong. Tried to turn the stove off. Then the knob on the stove came off. Literally. My sister watched in horror. I asked for some powder, (coz it would be stupid to pour water on the stove, there still traces of cookin oil left..). The powder did some good. Well, you can say no good at all, coz the fire was too big. Now, with this situation, even a moron wouldn't stay. So I went out of the house, with the fire still burning on my stove.

My little sister went to my neighbour's house. I ride my motorcycle, went to the nearest school, asked the guard for any fire extinguisher. The rain started to fall, I wore no helmet. The rain started to fall heavier, how dramatic. Good timing, hehe. Back to the guard, she said the school don't have any that she knew of (what??!!) . She asked me to ask the school office. I said I had no time. She offered me her cellphone to call the emergency service.

Lesson for all: On cellphone (in Malaysia), the emergency number = 112, not 999.

Thanks makcik :D :D

I dialed 112, and there's a beep, then the line went off. Great.

Lesson #2: If you can find a public phone, better use the public phone and dial the emergency service.

I found 2 public phones, tried to dial 999, heck, the public phones not workin.

Lesson #3: Public phones suck. Well, the ones who make the public phones suck, suck more.

Went to the nearest grocery, borrowed their phone to dial 999.Thanks Pacik kedai

Lesson #4: It's better if you could remember the phone number of your local fire department. That would save time.

After all that hectic, all I can do was wait. The agony of expecting the kitchen to blow, while at the same time you hope nothing would happen, was indescribable. Mind you there were 2 gas cylinders in my kitchen. 1 fully loaded, the other bout half. With big fire around, what else do you expect. Oh, 10 minutes has passed since the first fire.

To cut long story short, the fire engine arrived about 10 minutes after the call. It's a relief. They went inside and put off the fire. By this time, the fire was up to the ceiling. And the smoke, well, all I can say is, the deadly fume of melting stove, isn't a good thing to breath with. Fortunately, there was nothing around that can spread the fire even more, but the gas cylinders.

I asked the firefighter bout the cylinders, they said the cylinders were designed not to blow on this scale of fire. It will only explode when the outside temperature reaches 1000-2000 degrees Celsius. This fire juz now, was juz a baby (hehe, I add this myself :p). Well, baby or not, that really got me. Thanks Hollywood for showing every single fire with gas cylinders around, spells explosion.

Lesson #5: No matter how careful you are, when something bad is about to happen it just will. Just preparing not to cause something bad isn't enough, we also have to prepare for the worst.

Lesson #6: Accidents wont just happen on the news. If we're not ready enough, we will be the news.

Lesson #7: Fire extinguisher isn't a bad investment.

See all those wires? Scary huh..huhu

Thank God nothing bad happened :D :D, other than the experience. Well, it's a quite nice experience actually. Not everyone had this happened in their own house other than watch it on the news happening to others.

Thanks to everyone for your help. Thanks to my neighbour for giving the first shelter to my lil sis. Thanks to my other neighbour for entering the house with his fire extinguisher. Thanks all :D :D.

Jz sharing my experience. Cheers :D :D

Right? Nee? Meh?

2009-12-22T18:33:00.005+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

yoshh~..

It's been a very d very very n beri2 while eh :p..

I watched this morning talk show on RTM this morning, something bout the happiness of marriage. The thing that caught my attention was not the topic (well, I'm not an RTM fan anyways..), it's the way its guest talk about the topic. I only watched a small portion of the show when I decided to change the channel. The thing is, there were 2 presenters for the talk show this morning, a Muslim guy and a non-Muslim woman. Yes, I wanna talk about religion-related stuff a little bit. How the guest showed a little consideration towards how he talked. He was talking bout Adam and Eve. How they were created, and so on.

1^st thing is, the story was a bit, I dunno, unconvincing? When I said unconvincing (Islamic related), it's something that I never heard of before, and the guest never cited his source(s). I mean, it's a national TV program, if what he said, was not right, the wrong idea of Islam will be passed on not only towards non-Muslims, but also to Muslims.

Secondly, the thing that quite got on my nerve a bit, was his insensitivity towards the non-Muslim presenter. He was saying something bout how a woman was given the blessings of the instinct of a mother on the moment she's officially declared as someone's wife. The problem was, he gave that description in term of Islamic point of view, and he was like forcing, people to agree with him. It went something like this:

“On the moment the husband declared his akad (the declaration of agreement on something, in this case the marriage), the wife will cry. This is because Allah put His mercy and blessings to the woman; the instinct of a mother. Am I not right(and he was asking the presenters, both of em, and to the viewers)? I guarantee this. If you don't believe me, just look at all other newlywed couples when the husband do the akad. If the wife's not dropping her tears, then something is wrong”

This joke-like statement made me somewhat uncomfortable, as I saw the female presenter's reaction. Even if the presenter didn't show any reaction, I'll still feel uncomfortable as I personally think it's not the right thing to do. How can we 'force' people to agree with us, on something that seems to be hypothetical, especially, when it comes to faith-related issue? When the Holy Quran itself stated that there's no compulsion in religion[HQ 2:256]. Then who are we 'forcing' people to agree with our non-cited, unbacked claims?

And we shouldn't be prejudice, should we? Just because the bride didn't wet her eyes, doesn't mean she's not normal, or something is not right, right? We are not that desperate to make people believe in us such that others who witnessed something other that what we claimed, to be from out of this world, are we?

Everyone makes mistakes, and so do I. In fact, I do lots of 'em, hehe. It's just that, there are some things that really get on my nerves. The lack of tolerance towards others who are different than us is one of them. Sorry if my post this time sounds a bit emotional, hehe. It's not easy to satisfy everyone eh? Just simply don't, it's plain impossible :D. He was saying what he wanted to say, and so do I. Freedom of speech in a non-abusive manner, how sweet :D.

It's been a while since my last post, yes?waah!!

Well, I got a lot of things to write, just don't have enough writing skills to let me post anything (laziness is one of em, thanks..hehe :p). And I think if I got nothing good enough to post, better for me not to post at all, ne?

Jz sharing my 2cents. Cheers :D :D

p/s:

I wanna take this opportunity to congratulate all of my friends who are ending their bachelorhood this holiday season. Just to name some, Mus'ab, Musa, Tono, and to all of you guys who do the same la :D :D
Congratulations to Abang Aliem and Kak Husna for their newborn baby. Born as a Kiwi, raised as a full-fledged Muslim i'Allah :D :D
My deepest condolences to Kak the for her loss. It may not physically seem to be long-lasting, but it surely seemed to be ended after u guys did it the right way. May His blessings be with you, your late hubby, and your family i'Allah. Amiin.

Fast, Faster, Fasting..(vroom vroom??) :D :D~

2009-08-23T15:17:00.007+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I'll start with some standard intro for Ramadhan :p..

Alhamdulillah, here we are still able to breath and enjoy the most anticipated month in Islamic calendar. The month which contains a night that's equivalent to a thousand months (approx. 80 years..wallaweh~) (HQ 97:03). The month where all the doors of heaven are open as wide and the doors of hell shut as tight (ref.). The month of, well, to summarize, the best month of all months :p.

This is my second unfortunate (hehe..no la :p) year of celebrating Ramadhan abroad. Fortunately enough, here in Auckland, especially in C BD area, it's not difficult to pay your responsibility as a Muslim :). It's even just a matter of whether or not you want to offer your tarawikh prayer in congregation (unlike in other places that I heard of, it's even hard to find another Muslim). There's a small (compared to the number of Muslims here..but hey, it's a good place :)) room provided by the Auckland University of Technology (AUT) acts as masjid :).

This is a very very d very very good opportunity to know other Muslims from other part of the world better. For example, We have our iftar in a big tray shared by bout 9 persons per tray, and consists of brothers (well, in brothers pov of course :p) from all range of backgrounds and origins :). What's the use of eating together without trying to know each other, right :).

This year's Ramadhan celebration falls at around the end of winter. So, we're (i'Allah) approximately observing our fast as long as those in Malaysia :).

That's all I can think of right now :).

Tho it might be a little late..

“Happy Ramadhan to every Muslim all around the world.” -bom bom..kebabom (firecrackers sfx :p)-

May we gain the maximum benefit possible from this once per year festive season :). May we're blessed enough to meet the Lailatul Qadr. The night = 1000 months :) :).

Oh, and may we forget not bout our brothers and sisters who already strive a bit harder than us to keep on living. Well, this is a good time (not to say the only time..) to help 'em out right :). YOSH!!

Cheers :D D

Prepare to lose :D :D?

2009-08-14T20:23:00.004+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

This is the sequel of my laptop's journey on a step further towards destruction (haha..no, no..I love my lappy..). From my previous post bout how my laptop suddenly crashed and unable to boot, Ubuntu has been the main operating system since. I still do plant some faith for Vista to revive and for everything to be normal, but the wait fruits nothing. So last week I clean format the PC to install Ubuntu to be my main and only operating system. The plan was to clean format the PC and to reinstall Vista (still can't let loose the dependency towards microsoft products..haiih..). Unfortunately the plan didn't go quite well. The PC didn't recognize Vista installer CD (great..huhu), and..yeah..Ubuntu stays.

The main point here is how it took me several weeks to finally determined to clean format the laptop, and to let go all the data (I put my very best effort to back them up of course..) and the factory settings of the laptop. It feels quite hard for me to let go of something, as I tend to keep everything though they're sometimes (well, nearly all the time..) just my excess baggage. To cut the story short, I feel quite good after reformatted my baby. Seemed to me I had a new opportunity to rebuild (aka mess) its 'interior', and somewhat I felt the burden of thinking bout all those 'excess baggages' gone for a while (well, at least till now..).

Lesson learnt?

We (well, for the likes of me at least..) should learn to let go. We (the same category as before..) tend to keep all the stuffs, problems and whatnot as we feel that they're somewhat precious and have their own values. The thing is, nothing is valueless. Just because they (things, persons, burdens, etc) enter our lives, doesn't mean they have to stay. Learn to let go and you'll be glad that you do i'Allah :D :D

Don't be afraid to try new things and to depend on something or someone we don't familiar with. The saying “Tak kenal maka tak cinta” doesn't go for nothing. Just because it seems like everyone's using Vista (same goes with XP, Seven, etc..) we are not that confident to try alternative operating systems (yes..Ubuntu isn't the only one..). The truth is, there are lots of people out there who have already paved the way for us. Just because everyone's doing things in one particular way, the alternatives are not totally unacceptable. Learn to open yourself towards change. The world isn't static. Energy is conserved, but entropy always increases i'Allah (1^st and 2^nd law of thermodynamics..hehe :p). Change is inevitable, but not everything can and should be changing. Choose wisely, learn wholeheartedly :D :D.

adieu~

Cheers :D :D

Goodbye: PPSMI (for now, at least) :D :D..

2009-07-09T01:09:00.006+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

The government just decided to 'return' the language of the teaching and learning of science and mathematics (PPSM) from English.

One thing for sure, the amount of people opposing the implementation of PPSMI are as great as those who support the notion.
My stand as for now:
- Be it in English or Malay, I'd do my best to deliver my future responsibility (i'Allah) for the sake of Islam i'Allah :D.
- Arguments at this (i.e. our) level will bring more confusion and won't solve anything.
- I have no intention to argue nor to debate upon this matter. Any discussion/share of knowledge as to make things clearer is however most welcome and highly appreciated :). It's my hope to have a discussion where people are trading their ideas with the respect for others. The respect of others ability to think and decide, and the respect for their ideas to be heard equally.

I pray for the best of my people i'Allah. Amiin :D :D

Cheers :D :D

To Whom it may Concern :D :D..

2009-06-15T13:04:00.005+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

wooh~
I got another report of how sombong I am outside (da lame da dapat sbnarnye..hehe)..

The next time you saw me with my earphones fixed into my ears, not wearing specs, chances are I'll pass by 'ignoring' you. And don't be fooled, even sometimes when I seem to be looking at you, the thing is, I can't tell who you're @ a distant of bout 10 metres or more (w/out specs of coz, rabun da makin kuat :( ), especially towards the girls of my batch.

Here's my situation:

"erm..bdk batch aku ke tuh..x nmpak la plak..erm, pandang lame2 kang kate aku nak ngorat plak..abaikan je la"..

so..

sorry :D :D

Book reviews :D :D..(..??buang tebiat ke hape)

2009-06-14T15:19:00.016+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

Yosh..Will do some book reviews (pictures will be added later i'Allah, such a snail speed internet service rite now, dang!) to loose up my mind :D :D.

These are some of the books I bought in the past few months period. Well, to be honest I don't quite read em all yet. But I'm sure they're all equivalently good and interesting (well, @least to me, kalao x xde la beli kan :p)

SILAT (SEJARAH PERKEMBANGAN KURIKULUM SILAT MELAYU TRADISI DAN PEMBENTUKAN KURIKULUM SILAT MALAYSIA MODEN)

I bought this book bout 2 months back, directly from Malaysia. Written by the late Tuan Guru Hj Anuar Abd Wahab (may His mercy be upon him), the Guru Utama of Seni Gayong Fatani Malaysia. I've met him in person to complete my research bout Silat (back in the old days of MRSM) to know that this is one book not to be missed. From the history of the development of Silat in Malaysia, the philosophy of Silat, to its curriculum. I immediately recognized the value of this book (tho I admit my sense of evaluation isn't dat good, but I'm glad I trusted my instinct this time :D). Basically, this book is published for Silat enthusiast (no matter how good or bad ur in Silat, or even for non-practitioner), and it's a great book to read if you're interested in the, as I said earlier, development of Silat in Malaysia. Mantop :D.

THE BOOK OF NUMBERS (THE SECRETS OF NUMBERS AND HOW THEY CREATED OUR WORLD)

The book by Peter J. Bentley discussed the history of modern mathematics, and its affect on our lives. He showed how mathematics acts as a universal language for us to explain the behavior of our surroundings. The ongoing studies by modern scholars taken from the Greek Philosophers, Muslim scholars, Indian and Chinese matematicians make mathematics as a unique discipline which crosses the boundary of language (which is why I said it's a language of its own). From the simple explanation of why we can't divide things by zero, to the complex world of quantum mechanics. How mathematics which has been (and is used for centuries, and its never ending (and interesting..) voyage has made its impact on our lives. A great book, personally, for all (science-bound students especially), as an eye-opener (and brain-expander (ade ke term nih..haha)) on things that we 'deal' everyday in class, that mathematics isn't just a collection of hard-to-understand (sometimes not-understandable) theorems and philosophies. It's the symbol of our curiosity, which is dealt seriously. The symbol of our search to find the utmost knowledge possible acceptable by our small and still-under-study brain :D. The prospect is infinite. Mathematics is indeed a great gift from Allah to mankind :D.

PROFESSOR STEWART'S CABINET OF MATHEMATICAL CURIOSITIES

Finally, my latest collection. I bought this book from the University Book Store (UBS) bout 2 weeks ago. A very interesting indeed. The author put forth his collection of interesting facts, brain teasers, and lots of other stuff bout mathematics. For example, the speculation on why there's no category for Mathematics in Nobel Prize award (hehe..just so you know :)). Basically the book shows that there's a world more of mathematics than those we learn (which is arguable, whether we truly do) in class. Another great book to be read.

Yosh!! (why do I care reviewing these books, when I should be studying?huhu~)

adieu~ (ala2 YUI plak..hehe)

Keciklembut (or lembu?) Vista Hisap-Hisapan!!

2009-06-13T11:06:00.009+12:00

MICROSOFT VISTA SUCKS!! (just a friendly reminder (share of experience) of how..well, suck Microsoft Vista is :D :D)

Opened firefox, Yahoo messenger, some Microsoft Words document, and basically that was it when the PC froze. Waited for several seconds before my conscience told me to cold restart the machine (by holding the power button for a few secs). A menu appeared asking to scan the PC.

**Repair Windows (yes)

**Microsoft loading logo (ok..)

**black blank page (ok..)

**black blank page (lalala..)

**black blank page (erm..will get something to eat + watch the tele)

**black blank page (after 30 mins??)

**black blank page (another cold restart (what else kan..))

**Last Known Good Configuration option (enter..)

**Microsoft loading logo (plz work..)

**black blank page (plzz..)

**black blank page (bugger!!)

**another cold restart (hancur pc aku..ampeh)

**safe mode

**loading files (erm..)

**loading crcdsk.sys (erm..)

**crcdsk.sys (great..stop working after another 30 mins)

**surf the net, checking forums for any hint (turns out to be a common problem amongst Vista users. Still, no concrete solution. Thanks Microsoft!!)

**Tried almost everything (booting from Vista DVD, even XP cd, check disk using Ubuntu, editing BIOS settings, booting with just using 2 GB of RAM, disable network, disable this and that, re-enabling things, leaving the PC on overnight, even talking slowly to the PC, none works, thanks)

**repeating the procedures and other efforts to revive Vista with no vail (there goes my time when I should be studying for the exam..)

**2 weeks and counting..(Damn Microsoft!!)

**2 weeks and counting (hello Ubuntu Jaunty Jackalope :D :D)

So long :D :D

p/s - hehe..xleh gune bahase baek2 sket ke?

Sometimes Knowing When to Stop is an Advantage :D :D

2009-06-13T10:51:00.004+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

Examination Month. Well, at least for beings like me (whose paper starts on the 1^st day of exam and ends on the last, sentreng). So far 1 paper down (so long electronics, for now..huhu), and 3 more to go. Will have my taste of Geophysics this becoming Monday. Hoping everything to go well i'Allah, amiin.

Lots of stuff happened this semester. I appreciate everything I've learnt (thanks :D), both inside and outside the classroom (and labs..) realm. Not a good ending of the semester I might say (non-academic). 2 'blows' in one exam period isn't a nice thing to experience. Puzzling attitude and a shocking news, that really kept my mind full for a while. Still, I do think I can take more i'Allah (tho hoping not to have another 'blow' anytime soon..hehe).

“When things seem too good to be true, chances are they really are”.

I know it sounds pathetic to cryptically blog bout your misery, thank you. I do realize I'm knocking the door of becoming a loser even harder. But heck, If there's anything I've learnt about letting go, keeping things to yourself is a big NO-NO.

Yosh, finally, all d best to all candidates. Be it students from AU, AUT and all around the world who share the same 'festive' period as ours. Well, another semester has gone, making it a semester less towards graduation (i'Allah), and towards leaving this place. I'm gonna miss this place much. The people that entered my life, and the experience I gained. I can't thank you guys enough, not to mention to thank Allah for giving such an opportunity to be here.

So long :D

How's it Goin, Mate :)..

2009-05-16T09:59:00.003+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

It's been another long interval for my post (haiih..)..
Been quite busy with the courseworks, studies and sleep :p
(malas nak update blog cakap je la :P..)
and with little realisation, the exam is getting nearer. (XM mode..ON :D)
well, I hope this semester would be a good semester for me and everyone..amiin :D

Lot has happened recently, from global scale, to national and individual (which is me la :p).
From the swine flu pandemic (including the myths and the panic it has caused), to the ruckus (rather circus) in Perak, and my personal struggle this semester.
Time goes on and hopefully so do our growth (physically, metally and spiritually i'Allah :))

The Southern Hemisphere is getting ready for its winter season
(For those who even care to know :p, the seasons are opposite to each other for the Nothern and the Southern hemisphere :)). For I've not been back for more than a year now, I've completed my 4-season cycle here.

It's a nice experience to see how the season changes, especially for us, Muslims :).
From Subuh as early as 0300 (well, assuming the daylight saving is off), to Subuh as late as nearly 0600. From Isya' as late as 2130 to Isya' as early as 1900.
(tho the changes is not as dramatic as some other places, still, it's a nice experience :)).

For those who care, I'll be back in Malaysia for summer holidays by the end of this year i'Allah :).

It's been a pleasure for the time I've spent here. Learnt a lot about life (not to say I've learnt enuff :)), bout being independent, the respect for others, mainly due to the difference in culture and perspective and lots more :).

I'll remember this for the rest of my life i'Allah :), and try my best to bring back the good stuff i've taken here for the benefits of our people i'Allah :). Isn't this amongst the purposes I've been sent here :).

This month is officially my 'pokai' month. I surrendered my savings to gain the flight ticket home. Well, It's not a bad investment, I reckon, rite :).

For those who continually, and without any doubt (hopefully :p) supported and trusted me, I can't thank you guys enuff. Thank you :)

Finally, I hope the world would be a better place for all of us. Be it politically, economically, health, and last but not least spiritually. Amiin :D

Cheers :D :D

Easter Vs. Aidilfitri :)

2009-04-11T13:05:00.006+12:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

Reading the newspaper (NZ Herald - Traffic Warning - Stay off the Roads) today made me chilled. The news basically reported the traffic congestion in the long holiday of Easter which is to be expected this weekend. Here in New zealand, apart from Christmas+New Year holidays, Easter holiday is one of the most anticipated holidays. Comparable to Aidilfitri holidays back in Malaysia.

The news of the traffic jam isn't anywhere near shocking to me. The one thing that really got me was the fatal accidents occured yesterday. They claimed 5 people were dead on the road yesterday (and I think it's the nationwide death toll). 5 people loss on the road was quite a big number, as on the last paragraph of the article the author includes a statistics of Easter death toll from 2007; 6 in 2007, 9 in 2008 and 5 up to last night.

I do some googling (yes, google is a verb :p) "kematian kemalangan jalan raya musim perayaan", and I opened harakahdaily webpage, and the news quite disturbing somehow. Not from their political PoV, but from the number of fatalities they recorded on the 1st day of Ops Sikap 12 in 2007 (it's been 12 years the govt lauches the Ops Sikap till '07). There was 25 death toll on the 1st day of Ops Sikap. Nearly 3 times as many as the highest number of deaths for the whole Easter holidays in NZ. It makes sense then the claim that I heard somewhere (which I heard, not listened. a.k.a. I can't remember where I got the info though :p) that 1 of the major preventable death causes in Malaysia apart from health diseases, is road accident. Which is absolutely not a good news to share, and somehow puzzling. Our roads standard isn't bad
(if it's not excellent, compare to the roads here in NZ..hehe), we got a better highway system (apart from the payment of course :p) with places comfortable and safe enough to rest. Still, the fatality rates keep on rising, in the festive seasons especially.

Maybe there're factors which I don't take into account when talking about the road accident rates in Malaysia. Most of the accidents didn't occur on the major highways (PLUS, LPT, etc). The road condition isn't as good outside the major highways. Holes, unproper signs (sometimes confusing, even in the highways..haaih), and the attitude of drivers (which is why they call the operation Ops Sikap).

The public road isn't a good place to show off your skills, to realise the techniques you learnt in Need for Speed, Burnout and dozens more titles. The public road is the place for everyone to use with confidence that they can get to their destination without any worries. It's frustrating to know that there're people who suffered from the accidents which is caused by others insolent way of driving. The responsibity and the respect of others lives should be implanted in the minds of these drivers. They're not just hazarding themselves, but also others who tried their best to keep their family safe in their journeys. Just because you are confident that you'll be safe, doesn't mean you can drive recklessly on the roads as we don't perceive the situation on the roads equally. Bear in mind that we're not all born to drive and be cool on the roads as Karamjit Singh or Muhammad Hafiz (hehe..).

Lesson Learnt:
Drive safely, respect others lives, enjoy the holiday :).

Juz sharin my 2cents :D
Cheers :D :D

3rd Sem..yosh :D :D!!

2009-03-10T23:43:00.020+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

It's been a very d beri2 while since my last post. It's already the end of the 1st half of the 1st semester 2009. Dun wanna keep my blog 'bersawang' for a long time. Got lots of stuff to share, lots of thing to say, too tired and too busy to write. Oh, lets also blame my mental-block illness in writing for not updating the blog (that is, if there's someone who actually cares about me updating my blog :p). It's been already a week of a 2-week holiday for Auckland Uni. students (yahoo!!(what kinda hols with lots of asmnt and lab reports to write huh?..haha)), so I'll try my best to take this opportunity to update the content of this blog. I'Allah :). So to break the ice, I'll talk a lil bout my papers this semester. Yosh!!

I'm doing 4 papers this semester, and oh..all physics. Erm, physics is not a physics (so far..) unless you're immersed (voluntarily or forcefuly) into the realm of labs. Oohh yess..the labs. I got 2 3-hour labs per week and 1 3-hour lab fortnightly. So, I got this lab craze every 2 weeks, where my week will be filled with 3 3-hour labs (terbaek kan..huhu).

PHYSICS 211 (Analytical Techniques in Physical Sciences 3):

One serious class to substitute Maths 253 and Maths 260. This is basically a Maths course, taught in a physical science point of view. So you don't have to prove theorems for no apparent reason (in physics PoV of course :p). This is the smallest class for me so far, 15 students enrolled for the class, bout 13 appear regularly for lectures. We're gonna endure one 3-hour MATLAB lab fortnightly, 8 assingments, and finally 2 tests. Why do I took the chances of taking the course which no one tried before? Well, 1stly, obviously I'd wanna avoid Maths 253. 2ndly, I'd wanna reduce the burden for next semester for this course also equivalent to Maths 260, which I have to do next semester. 3rdly, to teach myself the sense of independence, try to do something which no one did before, hence, try not to depend on others so much. Wish me luck :).

PHYSICS 213 (The Geophysical Environment); Physics 230 (Materials and Waves) and Physics 240 (Networks and Electronics):

Nothing much to say bout these courses, they're precluded in our 'schedule' prepared by the university. The interesting part for Physics 230 and Physics 240 is, unlike 1st stage Physics (e.g Physics 150, 120) stage 2 physics labs don't depend on the course per se (do I use this word correctly :p?)(i.e. you're not assigned to different experiment for a single subject (240 and 230)). You do the same lab for both papers. The only thing is, maybe there's an experiment or two which you are required to do in order to pass the paper (this info is especially intended for our physics juniors..take note :) ). Oh, as I'm doing physics 230 and physics 240 in one semester, I'd have to do 2 lab sessions per week (1 session = 3 hours). So, there goes my weekdays. The training to become a physicist (be it a physics teacher, or wherever that may require my service later :) ). Oh..regarding the subjects which I intended to sacrifise this semester..erm..
Physics 230 and Physics 213. 2 out of 4 subjects isn't a good decision kan. So..waahh!!gotta strive for all subject la camnih..yosh!!

p/s: Thanks to Sho, the one responsible for introducing this heart touching memories of high school song to me (ooh I'm not gay jz becoz I say heart touchin yeah..huhu)

AKB48 - 桜の花びらたち2008 (Sakura no Hanabiratachi 2008)

Cheers :D :D

Ngarut2an Dari Internet ~ :D

2009-03-10T01:23:00.002+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..
m goin away 4 a moment from my study desk, n my dear assignment (yes, assignment(s)..on d 1st week of skola..haiih~). Surfin the net, readin ppl's blog, and I found this from Shahida's. How funny I wont feel sleepy doin this test, unlike bout 5 mins ago, while doin my asmnt..hahaha. So, this's d result and my comment :D. Yosh~!!:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties (Me..an efficient problem solver?).

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people (Somewhat yes). You don't judge a book by its cover (sometimes..), so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style (Definitely..!!). This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes (again..me..attractive to others??).

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person (gotta finish d studies n work 1st la..huhu). And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might see that person (Will I?).

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive (am not so straightfwd..melayu le katekan), so you will find yourself with plenty of dates (Plenty of dates? yes..in Ramadhan. Ramai org baek sedekah kurma kat surau..).

Your views on education

Education is very important in life (No doubt!!). You want to study hard and learn as much as you can (There's a big chasm dividing WANT and WILL..I want? yes!! will I? That's gonna need a lot of effort..yosh!!).

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income (So rite :D). Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life (So rite :D).

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working (haa? correct correct!!).

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear (No Comment).

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice (waah..dasat2..hahaha).
People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues (zat so?). Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve (I humbly agree..huhu).

Test taken from here.

p/s:
How great is Allah.

He created the universe, which revolves according to His will, unaffected (in a bigger aspect) by our insignificant (relatively) being.

How great is He, The One who created the universe which moves beautifully and continuously, even when we sleep.

How great is He, Who don't need any time to sleep nor rest. He, who always exists.

He, Who owns all the knowledge and powers.

And we, are His servants, who strive to even know ourselves.

Aiseh..Salah Akaun la Kak :p..

2009-03-04T22:57:00.008+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

There's a story of this guy, who was approached by this beautiful young lady. He was then asked, in a provocative way (somewhat..hehe), "Why tudung? Not all the 'tudung'ians (i made up this term :p) are good. There're loads of them who were as bad or even worst than those who didn't wear them" (wallaweh~). This guy looves~ givin analogies. To him, it shows the extent of his understandings towards the situation.

He somehow remembered an analogy given by brother Shah Kirit in a talk he attended while he was in college. A brother asked brother Shah Kirit, "Why a good non-muslim, who lives his/her life sometimes better than a muslim, being the best ever friend one could ask, the best ever kid parents could ever dream of, and being such a good human being, be sent into hell, while he/she's only slack was JUST not acknowledging the deity of Allah and Muhammad as His messenger?"

Brother Shah Kirit replied (summerised version :p):

"There's a person who saved a big chunk of her salary in a bank account for the benefit of her future. Who each and every month tried her best to discipline herself to keep her budget tight. Who endured the hardship of living with small expenses, just for the sake of a bright future. She deposited the money each and every month, and never missed a single month to do so. By the time she wanted to withdraw the money, to enjoy her savings, to her shock, her bank account was empty. "What's the problem?" she asked. Well, it's eventually came to her knowledge that the account she used to deposit the money, was not hers. All these years, she put the money into a wrong account!! How then could she enjoy the money she painstakingly saved..rite?" (*ignore technical issues from this analogy :)). The person in this story, couldn't use her savings, instead, suffered the consequences, JUST because she put her money into a wrong account.

Back to the issue of aurat, with a bit of twist from the analogy (my version :p..yosh!!):

"There's a person who wanted to save her money into a bank account. She created an account with a bank of her choice. Like most of the people (including me..), she hardly read the terms and conditions. "As long the moneys are safe" she thought, so do most of us :p. Unlike the previous story, she make sure she put the money into the right account. Sometimes, she saved more than any of her colleagues do. By the time she wanted to withdraw the money, she was shocked when she recieved her bank statement. She looked at the bank statement with mixed feelings, as the figures printed in the paper was much less than what she expected to gain. She read a letter attached to the bank statement:

"We are sorry to inform that your money has been deducted every month to pay the penalty fees as you keep on breaking the terms and conditions of our bank.""

Lesson learnt:
1) Do remember to choose the right bank.
2) Do remember to save in the right account.
3) Do read and understand the terms and conditions of the bank of your choice.
4) Try our best not to break the terms and conditions, as the consequences will be faced by, well, none other than us.

Cheers :D :D.

Tgk2 Muke Punye Pasai ~ :D..

2009-02-26T20:31:00.003+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

'Mental block = an inability to remember or think of something you normally can do; often caused by emotional tension' <<< This is what I'm suffering rite now.

I read this article quite some time ago. A good article I should commend, somehow 'terkena batang idung sendiri'. Credit to iluvislam.com:

Ehem, Gambar Muslimahkah Ini?

www.iluvislam.com

oleh:private_xplorers

(dipetik dari blog WEWR ~khabar dari urdun~)

MUQADDIMAH

Terkadang bila melayari weblog-weblog rakan, menjelajah ke dalam dunia maya bagi manusia yang memayakan diri mereka, saya merasa hairan melihat sesetengah weblog muslimah, yang bertudung, yang menutup aurat, tidak segan silu pula untuk memaparkan gambar masing-masing.

Tiadalah terlalu salah untuk memaparkan gambar anda, ya muslimah sekalian, namun, sayangnya, anda terlupa bahawa gambar yang anda posting itu adalah gambar sebesar skrin 17 inci! Setiap butir jerawat dan bulu halus di muka anda terpampang rapi!

MUSLIMAH & GAMBAR : ADA APA DENGANNYA?

Tidaklah tujuan saya mengaibkan kalian. Saya adalah rakan kamu. Sahabat kamu. Yang enggan melihat wajah-wajah anda itu, dipaparkan sewenang-wenangnya kepada orang. Biarpun wajah bukan aurat mengikut sesetengah mazhab, namun tatkala fitnah mengundang, tidakkah ia melayakkan ianya ditutup dari pandangan umum? Muslimahku, Dunia internet semakin berkembang maju. Satu hari, satu weblog, mungkin berjuta-juta orang yang melihatnya setiap hari.

Di kalangan mereka ada yang bagus, yang menundukkan pandangan selaras firman Allah dalam Surah An-Nur “Katakanlah (Wahai Muhammad) kepada orang-orang lelaki Yang beriman supaya mereka menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang Yang haram), dan memelihara kehormatan mereka. Yang demikian itu lebih suci bagi mereka; Sesungguhnya Allah amat mendalam pengetahuannya tentang apa Yang mereka kerjakan. ”

Namun, kita harus akui, bahawa di kalangan jutaan orang itu, ada yang hatinya sakit, ada yang jiwanya perit menanggung kesakitan akibat terlihat wajah-wajah kamu biarpun kamu bertudung litup. Muslimahku, Kalau kita lihat dunia gambar bukan main maju lagi. Dahulu, cuma setakat kamera yang perlu dicuci gambarnya. Kini, telefon juga menjadi kamera. Kamera pula lebih dahsyat, lebih instant, sesegera mee segera yang sama kerosakan yang dibawanya, penyakit hati. [Emphasis added]

Alangkah malangnya, kalau wajah-wajah anda yang terpamer itu, mengundang gejolak rasa di jiwa insan bernama lelaki, yang beriman akan beristighfar dan memujuk hati, manakala yang sakit jiwanya, akan mula mengganggu anda. Mula memburu anda dengan SMS, telefon, hatta mungkin mendekati anda, dengan tujuan memiliki anda….

Hanya kerana satu kesilapan yang mungkin anda tidak terniat, wajah anda terpampang besar di internet! Gambar adalah bayangan realiti. Namun mungkin juga ia fantasi. Kadangkala tertipu juga lelaki pada fantasi Photoshop, Fireworks dan seribu satu pengedit gambar lagi. Kalau itu memang tujuan anda, anda tanggung sendirilah. Tapi kalau niat anda cuma berkongsi, dengan tanpa sedar mengajak fitnah bertandang, maka amaran saya, hati-hatilah!

PENYELESAIANNYA….

Andalah sahaja yang mampu menyelesaikannya. Bukan orang lain. Diri anda, andalah yang harus menjaganya. Apa tujuan anda bertudung dan menutup aurat? Bukankah kehendak syariat dan ingin menutup pandangan orang kepadamu? Maka, soalan saya, menundukkan pandangan bukan kehendak syariatkah? Memaparkan wajah anda besar-besar menutup pandangan orang terhadap andakah? Kerana weblog-weblog dan web foto itu milik anda, seharusnyalah anda kecilkan wajah-wajah anda dengan mengecilkan saiz gambar itu.

Banyak cara boleh dilakukan menggunakan perisian pengedit gambar. Belajarlah daripada yang tahu. Hindarkanlah aksi-aksi dan posing-posing yang hanya akan menambahkan lagi kerosakan jiwa masyarakat. Sekiranya niat anda hanya ingin berkongsi dengan rakan muslimah anda, lakukanlah secara tertutup. Elakkan posting yang boleh dilihat oleh segala macam jenis orang. Kalau lebih mudah, anda kirim saja emel bergambar pada rakan muslimah anda itu.

Ingat, wajah anda, anugerah Allah.

Anugerah Allah itu hanya layak dilihat berkali-kali oleh yang layak sahaja...
Wallahu A’lam.. [Emphasis added]

Wanita solehah, Itulah sebaik-baik hiasan...

sweet as article, don't u think :D

xpasal2 je (2) :)...

2009-02-24T01:20:00.002+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..
My 2nd tag-game post. Just when I had no idea on what to post. Thanks to Shahida:

And These Are The Tags:
Put Your I-Tunes, Windows Media Player, Etc. On Shuffle.
For Each Question, Press The Next Button To Get Your Answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
Tag 10 Friends.
Everyone Tagged Has To Do The Same Thing.
Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
Masihkah Kau Ingat - Kopratasa

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Permata Buat Isteriku - Kopratasa

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Mengintai dari Tirai Kamar - Exists

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Mengusung Rindu - Spin

WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Coward of the County - Kenny Rogers

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Stanza Sekeping Hati - Ben Nathan (Ben Adam)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
You are My Sunshine - unknown

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Adakah Kau Setia - Sting

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Blues untuk Rakyat - Lovehunters ft. Ramli Sarip

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Kau yang Satu - Ramli Sarip

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sunshine of Your Love - Cream

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Bukan Kerana Nama - Ramli Sarip

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Cliffs of Dover - Eric Johnson

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
Perjalanan Hidup - Ramli Sarip

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Untuk Generasiku - Ramli Sarip

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Prophet of Doom Debate (erk..nih ceramah la..hahaha)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Anak - Carefree

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Istilah Bercinta - Ramli Sarip

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Blues Bee - Ramli Sarip

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Evening News - Jason Lo

p/s: This's from my recent download list. So..tuh la die..haha

tag 10 friends (kurang sket xleh ke kak?..2 ckup ek :D)

sazuwi
Namizam

As We Move on~ :D

2009-02-14T21:20:00.006+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I called my family yesterday. I told my mom how sometimes I had this dream and when I woke up in the mornin, I felt like I was already in Malaysia. Well, I got the same dream yesterday. shut, am I homesick or somethin?

Btw
As I surfed the net just now, browsin the net like I got nothin to do, searchin the youtube for any videos that I might be familiar with, then..I found this treasure (credit to sho for the video):

Background story for the video:
The video was prepared for Minggu Apresiasi Puisi (or somethin..I can't remember precisely). If you are detail enuff, and look at the clock beside the door, we did this crazy clip at around 0130. Ooh, the video never played as we intended it to be (on the Puisi night). Got some glitches. Darn it. Anyways, it's pretty cool I think :p.

Man..how sometimes we can be so mengarut..hahaha

p/s : gotta delete this post b4 I start teachin.. hahahancurkan dia!!

The Problematic..Well..Me (sigh~)

2009-02-12T15:40:00.005+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

Juz received my marked essay assignment.

"... but your written expression and grammar is problematic" (chanteet~)..

lesson learnt:

As I warned earlier, my English grammar isn't good (politically correct (PC) for bad)..

I do think the style used for my essay and posts here aren't that different.

Hence, don't (never kot) take my posts here as a benhmark for formal writings (academic essays), and grammatically-correct articles.

soo~

Towards a better grammar usage!!

Yooooosh~!!

p/s - I've been learning English for years now, with minute improvent. Well, better with some than none. Better to realize than to not :D~

Smile, Though Your Heart is Aching..

2009-02-10T12:28:00.014+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I had this discussion with a brother bout the issue of sabar and redha. He told me, there's this story from a friend of him (which he of course, made the name classified), which he claimed to be true. He told me how the guy fell in love with a girl (well..another one of those stories). How he struggled to keep the feelin towards himself, and tried to do the right thing; not to express his so-called love till d rite time comes (which i thought to get married..i dunno, jz my concern..heh).

Then one day, when he felt dat the 'day' for him to express his feelin is still faraway, and he couldn't hold it anymore, he broke his silence. He didn't ask for being a partner for the girl, as he knows a bit of Islam. How Islam controls pre-marriage male-female relationship. He just expressed his concerns towards the girl. The girl rejected him politely, saying dat she needs time to focus on her study and whatsoever the reasons. This pitiful guy took d words bit by bit, and didn't consider it to be a rejection. The guy continued his life, while still keeping the hope for the girl. Typical short-sighted teenagers.

Til one day, he found out that the girl is actually with someone else. The dual-frustration, of being lied to and being rejected, haunted him. And the mixed feelings he felt when the girl actually fell into this 'trap' of life for youngsters, 'couple'. He tried his best though to forget the misfortune event. But you see, it's not an easy feat. As we can't see any 'delete' button inside us to easily forget things that we don't wanna remember. So, the thorny journey begins.

Fortunately for him, he didn't do anything stupid to channel his frustration. He, shockingly enuff, tried to recover by getting as much knowledge as he could. The knowledge of life, the knowledge of Islam itself. We humans tend to forget the Almighty when we're in a situation where we feel comfortable (refer my previous post, 10 minutes, where I stated that our comfort is also a test for us). The question of whether or not he succeed, I dunno, neither the brother who told me the story. But there's a thing or two we can learn from this study case :).

1) Patience

Imam Al Ghazali, in his book, Ihya' Ulumuddin, explain patience = to endure all physical hardship. Be it Muslim or non-Muslim, everyone will be tested to see the level of his patience. Anger, frustration, sadness, you name it, even happiness, all these will stretch our limit of patience. Especially for Muslims, which Allah has stated in His Holy Book,

" Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "we believe," and will not be tested?" - Holy Quran 29:2

Allah has promised to test us, as a prove of our Iman. I remembered from a kuliah I heard. "You can judge your level of patience when you look at yourself when the misfortune befalls you. Not 10 years afterwards, but what's your immidiate respond towards the event".

This, brings us to the second topic.

2) Redha (sorry dunno what it's called in English :p)

I can't recall the exact formal meaning of redha. But from my limited knowledge and understandings, redha (as in us) is the optimism, the husnu zhon, to think positively to Allah and react accordingly. When we talk bout redha, we can't escape from talking bout Qada' and Qadar. Everything has been set for us. Allah knows the best.

Let's take example from our case study above. Let say, that guy choose to forget the girl totally, in order to please himself, to get rid the sadness and frustration. Let say the guy said, "well, I accept what's just happened. Redha je la. lupekan je". Is this really what redha means? For us to accept things according to our will, when something went wrong? This method only work if the girl isn't meant to be for him.

What if the exact girl is meant to be for him? To be his wife, while he had seed this hatred inside him in order to forget her. This kind of twist of event isn't impossible, Allah knows best. By that time, will he be redha to accept the very girl he tried hardly to forget? This is what Allah said in his glorious book:

"Jihad is ordained for you though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you don't" - Holy Quran 2:216

Though the context of the ayah is to encourage Muslims for jihad, look at the next statement from Him. We may hate something meant to be good for us, and vice versa. Allah knows the best, while our not so long-sighted views of life, knows not. Redha is to readily accept what is offered to us. As we don't know what is prepared for us, it's unwise just to wait for the 'rezeki' to fall, rather we must work for it.

We asked from Allah to be strong physically, mentally and emotionally. But do we work on that?
What kind of effort have we shown?
To be strong physically, there must be work out to be done..
To be strong mentally, there must be knowledge seeking going on..
To be strong emotionally, are we going to runaway from our problems and just pray be granted a strong and stable emotions?

About the study case (story above), I don't know how much of it is true. Hopefully he didn't make that up. The more important thing to me is, the lesson learnt from the story. Sometimes, we should put ourselves in others shoes to at least gain a bit of understanding of life.

I don't know where I heard this, but there're sayings regarding to this matter. Roughly it goes like this:

He is a wise man, who learnt from his experience.
He is even wiser when he learnt from others.

Jz sharing my 2cents.

Cheers :D

Taon Lombu la Pulok~ :D

2009-02-08T23:19:00.008+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I jz came back from the final night of Lantern Festival. Lantern Festival, a festival held each year (well at least since I came :p) to celebrate the coming of the Chinese New Year at Albert Park, jz behind the university. The 3-day event ended today, with a fireworks show. A magnificent show indeed. The colours, sounds they make. Wallaweh!!

From my casual observation, this year's event drawn more visitor than last year's. It's a healthy activity, where ppl from different backgrounds, come together and enjoy themselves. This is one of the example of harmony I've been talking bout :).

This is what the Holy Quran teach us:

"...made you into nations and tribes, that you may know one another..." 49:13

Take the opportunities to learn something from others. Learn their cultures and find what good values can we share with them :).

Performance by Wu Opera Troupe from Zhejiang, China (1)

Performance by Wu Opera Troupe from Zhejiang, China (2)

Inter-racial gathering; U got Indians, Chinese, Eropeans, Arabs, Japanese...

...and Malays. Hehe :p

Year of the Ox. Well, we gotta strive no matter what year it is..rite :D

The background should show the 'pasar malam'. But it's too dark for my camera..huhu

Perak: A Thing or Two (or 3..erm, even 4 :p) to be Pondered Upon :D

2009-02-08T11:38:00.009+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I made myself clear that I dun wanna discuss the issue of 'lompat parti' in Perak or elsewhere. It's just that when surfing the net, reading the comments and even posts in blogs, forums, seems like, we're bursting out our emotion rather than rational aspect of the issue. This might not reflects to all, but to some, well, it's time to put on our thinking cap, shall we :).

1) 'Lompat Parti'

Are these people eating they're own words?

Before:

PR - 16 Sept Aspiration: where several MPs would change their side of seats in the parliament and support PR

BN/UMNO - 'Lompat Parti' is totally unacceptable, unethical and unjust.

After:

PR - The MPs who resigned are traitors.

BN - Le'ts just accept our MP who want to return to us

Question to ponder:

Sometimes it's not sufficient to judge from just seeing the effect of actions. We should ask ourselves, why do they give 'contradictory' statements. They're not morons (well, supposedly not). This is what I mean:

Why PR said 'lompat parti' from BN to PR is acceptable but not otherwise?

a) They believe the action was done on moral basis, they're (the Lompat MPs) not offered
any rewards for doing so.

b)The MPs who changed from PR to BN were all 'paid'.

*well then, to what extent the statements are true?

This is what we should look for. Not just by judging from their action of 'lompat parti'. We shouldn't waste our energy focusing to cure (in this case, comment) the symptoms, rather, use the symptoms to find the real 'disease'and act accordingly.

2) The BN's action of toppling the current Perak govt. without election

This is just giving a green light for others that this's permisable (@least 'morally'). Well, then we (or they (BN)) can't blame PR if the same reply is done by PR(whether it's on state level or national level). Coz they (BN) are actually the pioneer for this.

The question of whether with this step, it's a sign that the country isn't anymore steered by Rakyat. Instead, it's controlled by few political elites, Where they can 'lompat parti' and to support the other side of the political power without any consent from the Rakyat. They're 'Wakil Rakyat's. The Rakyat's reps. Their job is to represent Rakyat. Not to make their own personal decision (no matter how morally justified (which is a subjective matter) it is) that directly affect the Rakyat, without first, consulting the Rakyat. The concept of democracy, where Rakyat rule the country is being undermined (or, the flaws of democracy are starting to show themselves).

These are few questions that we should at least ponder upon, before we enter the stage of thinking bout the conspiracy theories, and other. We need to be clear of the situation before making up ur mind.

3) Extremists cannot be reasoned with

Be it PR or BN, the issue of extremism isn't new. Its not a problem at all to show our support towards our beliefs. The problem is to support blindly. To add the spices, let's make things worse with EGO, when we think we're the ones who know, the others info are totally unreliable. Totally reject others POV when they're not in line with ours. This attitude is the reason of the break ups within our community. "Oh yes, we're trying to develop the country. But first, let's just get rid of our competitors who didn't agree with us. So that we could develop the nation peacefully". Why don't we just accept that everyone wants the best for the nation. And there isn't only a single way to do so.

4) Racism

This is the saddest part of our society. We're being racist. We think our nation is superior than others. It's not wrong to think that way. It'll develop the sense of appreciating who you are and try your best to 'up' your nation. The problem is, when we belittle others. The problem with racism -why Islam detest racism - is becoz we don't choose our race when we're born. (for Muslims, we believe) It's Allah who chose who you are. In what nation or tribe ya'll be born in.

"...made you into nations and tribes, that you may know one another. Verily, the most honourable of you with Allah is that who has At-Taqwa (being a person, who fear and love Allah strongly). Verily, Allah is the All-Knowing, Well-Acquainted" - Holy Quran, 49:13

The Prophet (s) said: "One who calls towards 'asabiyyah is not from us, one who fights for 'asabiyyah is not from us and the one who dies on 'asabiyyah is not from us." [Mizan al Hikmah, hadith # 13035] source

(I'm not a hadith literate (The sanad isn't there), do inform me if the hadith isn't a sahih. As I don't wanna share a place in Jahannam for sharing a 'hadith' which is not from Rasulullah (s))

It's a noble thing to preserve your rights and heritage, it's just the noble deed is 180-degreely turned when we deny others. Not everyone as good and not everyone as bad. The problem is when less good ppl talk bout less good things that influence others whom without enuff knowledge and understandings of what's goin on.

For Muslims, just remember the Day of Judgement. When all our deeds, our sayings, will be the very reason of our place in one of the two options; hell or heaven. No other place will be offered, unfortunately.

Juz sharin my 2 cents.

Cheers :D

Kebaikan Karangan 'Menyambung Karangan' = Kreatif :D :D!!

2009-02-07T23:57:00.007+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I was talking ('ym'ing 2 be exact) with Ana'ruddin', my classmate at MARA College Seremban. We're talking bout lots of stuff, ngarut2 one, then suddenly, the topic of our childhood maniac.

1st, all of a sudden, we talked about ALONG (educational TV Programme by PNB, aired on TV1) and Siti Sifir with her funky specs.

Then Doraemon (where the dubbed voices actor and actress (what's the term for these guys ah?) can be heard in like every Bahasa Malaysia dubbed cartoon). Where else can you learn the meaning of bola lisut?wahahaha

Next, Power Rangers, with censored opening song, just becoz they had the word "Morphin". The similarities all these guys had? They're all aired 'wktu maghrib'. From 1900 - 2000.

When we talked bout these shows, we can't helped ourselves from talking bout the damn long and frequent ads. Apollo, Dindang, Tora, and so much more. I even remember 1 of Apollo ad song (rap style):

Ap Ap Ap Ap, Ap Ap Ap Ap, Ap Ap Ap Ap, Apollo,
Ikutlah rentak, rentak Apollo yeah,
Kacang bersalut coklat,
Pastinya snek lazat!
Ap Ap Ap Ap Apollo!!

Damn how I remember those lines. wahaha
How in our childhood we cursed those ads, hoping, praying so d ads wont shorten the 'lifetime' of our fav cartoons. How everytime we watch the cartoon, we looked at the clock, as we know the cartoon would only last for 30 mins (the most!!)

Speakin of which, those ads still survive till today. Wonder how can they last that long. Salute!! In their ads, Tora and Dindang for example, they're sooo friggin cheap. Their ads for topspins for example, we can actually, clearly see a white string attached on them. What a joke!!hahaha

Oh, now I remember. The reason we talked bout all these memories. Out of the blue, we suddenly had this rubbish. "apa yang pentiiing..kerjaaasama" from this suddenly-famous-cartoon, Wonderpet!! Oh, how we can be so good in developing stories (thanks to our education syllabus, 2 many of those "sila sambung karangan ini..." question).

Well, lesson learnt? Whether or not we realized it, we're getting older. So much older where we never thought of our life in this age when we're that young. The times when we think, adults are our parents,teachers, big cousins, and never (well, almost) thought that we'll someday be the 'adults'. Well, unfortunately enuff, time goes by, and we're now at that stage of life.

That's life. Same as death. We know people will die. But we still had this mentality of, well, like death is far from us. It's like, we heard stories bout people's homes got destructed by fire, and we just think, well, it just happens, and we'll never 'appreciate' the event, till we are part of the story. But the 'story' of deaths, life after death, will be experienced only once. And it's just either we make it, or being dead regret. Just a reminder for myself :D. Cheers :D :D!

Dol, XM Dol!!

2009-02-07T21:54:00.006+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

summer semester near comes to an end. After nearly 6 weeks of struggle, reading tutorial materials, doin essay(!!), cecil tests, and.. trust me, challenging lectures (ngntok~), finally, one final week of class left. Unfortunately for me, History 103G also consists of one 2-hour final paper (16 Feb '09 -> 1415 - 1630). And it's, well, as expected from a history paper, essay writings.

Well..
All d best for those who're struggling for their finals this semester. The people who sacrifice their summer holiday for classes, and academic stuffs. May our efforts blessed by Him, i'Allah. Yosh!!!

Only Spit Upwards Where Gravity Can't Haunt You :D

2009-02-06T11:03:00.013+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

1st of all, regarding my previous post:

'... so-called holocaust of 6 mil of Jews by the Nazis in the WWII ... might be a giant hoax of the century'

I know it sounds controversial. I never intended to be a holocaust denier (so as to be a holocaust supporter) as the knowledge I received isn't enuff for me to take side. The statement came out when I spent a little more than 4 hours of my life, watching this documentary -> "one third of holocaust". So, I'm humbly apologise if my statement somehow disturbing. :D.

2ndly
Man, I'm tired of this already. What's up with Malaysian politics? Didn't we finished our GE nearly a year ago? Juz do the job already. Stop arguing as who're supposed to be in power. The people have decide, so..?

Perak..
Haiih. 1st the case of 'hopping' party. Then to topple the elected state govt. I dont wanna discuss this issue here, as we can find a lot of relating resources all over the net. I'm just sick of this. With the media manipulating the situation (or being manipulated?).

Yes. The media. the so-called mainstream media!! the platform where we should get unbiased report of issues. Doubt me? Read Utusan Malaysia. Read how totally bias the newspaper towards govt. How extremely bias the reports against the opposition parties. The difference in their tone. I'm a supporter of neither (as I can't show my support in politics, yet), just, this is insane!

When Dato' Sri Anwar Ibrahim stated there would be several MPs from BN would change their side to PR, the response were absolutely thundering. With academic figures (not to mention political figures) stating the action is immoral , doesn't respect the country's law and the people's trust etc etc. But when the exact same thing happened to the other side of the political power, well, it's somehow, suddenly, acceptable.

I'm not critisizing the action of 'hopping' party here (I don't want to, not to say I'm agree or disagree). I want to critisize how the so-called mainstream media play their role. How Utusan Malaysia 'legalise' this action, where several months back, their voices towards the issue were different. Bear in mind that Utusan Malaysia isn't suppose to be a political party newspaper, unlike Harakah of course, where they state clearly they're sold for PAS members only.

They (Utusan Malaysia) abuse the trust given by the people to provide unbiased reports. They're more accessible and widely accepted by the people. So why then, they have an inclined views regarding to political matters?

Just to name a case:

How in Utusan Malaysia, it's repeatedly stated that Ir Nizar should respect the decision of the Sultan of Perak (they even put 'titah Sultan' in their report)
vs
Their reports of BN's reaction towards the Terengganu's when the Sultan decide not to accept BN's candidate for MB.

It's not the matter of who's right or wrong. Just deliver the news as they're. Don't put your political views in the reports. It is really, well, annoying. Coz we're not that dumb to not realize how bias you're.

It's like we're being forced to accept the 'formal' view of issues (can we say..brainwashed?). How can we decide when our source of information has clearly chose their side, when they should be neutral.

A country isn't all about politics. it's not about few people in power to make critical decision of the nation (as how history proves, the elites can be thrown out overnight) . It's about how we should work together to steer the country. The country isn't exclusively one's property. It's ours. Malaysians.

The situation here - as in my naive and unmatured - politically - views - seems like people are more willing to struggle for power rather than to struggle for the sake of the country. The never ending drama of the struggle for the prime spot in our small country's head of administration. Don't they get tired?

Just a humble reminder for Muslims. We should remember that we're all going to be judged. Try our best not to cross the limits set by Allah (as we have countlessly crossed, try to not add another). In front of Him, we're all going to be the same, regardless how powerful we might have been, or how many million (or even billion, or even more) dollars we have saved. What we might have now aren't supposed to be seen as priviledges, rather, liabilities. The more we enjoy our 'priviledges', the heavier the responsibilities are.

I'm sorry Utusan Malaysia. I'm just expressing my views. I didn't have any grudge against you though, it's just I'm sick of the situation rite now.

Jz sharin my 2cents. Cheers :D

Whys and Hows

2009-02-02T12:06:00.018+13:00

warning: the post might contain profane language that reflects the author's disapproval of things, sorry in advance. I am not an anti-semites. My posts aren't about anti-semitism either. I strongly disregard racism. They're many more good Jews as there're no less of bad Muslims.

Assalamualaikum :)..

Why..
are we restrained from questioning the so-called holocaust of 6 mil of Jews by the Nazis in the WWII, when there're not few proofs the holocaust might be a giant hoax of the century.

Why..
are we restrained from taking actions towards our Muslim brothers and sisters in Palestine and all around the world, while we watched with our own 2 friggin eyes how they're treated!!

How..
Darn stupid we're when we're to believe those blood-sucker bastards when they say they're acting appropiriately towards those friggin home-made missiles by Hamas??

How..
Darn stupid we're when we think Hamas are to be blamed solely for the ongoing conflict. How we stopped our brain from working when we forgot that they're also human beings, who wont retaliate when they're not provoked!(The Israelis are also the same, they wont respond if they're not attacked. Soo damn right!!)

How..
in this situation, we still don't realize that we are too dependent on others. "let the govt. decide", "let the Arab League make the decision", "let the UN work it out". We feel we're useless midgets who don't possess any power to help our oppressed brothers and sisters, that we need others to work for us.

How..
are we going to stand before Allah and answer Him. When our Muslim brothers and sisters blame us for their sufferings. They blame us for doing nothing. When they blame us with our silence towards their ill-treatment. When they blame us, for being bloody selfish!!

How..
despite all these mixed feelings, the anger, sadness, and guilt, I still feel I can do not much to reduce their burden :(

Bile aku mengarut..haiih~

2009-01-28T19:23:00.014+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

sekadar selingan :)..
kte men teka teki sket~:D. Yosh!! :

Sape Die??

bapaknye penah jd pelumba,
ntah kenapa teros berenti,
anak pon nak jadi pelumba juge,
tapi..berlumbe pakai kayu hoki??

4 pemuda berbaju kotak (ala2 futuristik),
merah hijau hitam n biru,
seperti polis gaya dan lagak,
swipe kad n tekan2 nombor sket, kuar la senjata tu

5 (lepas tuh 6) orang anak mude,
kuar bertarung pukul tujuh (wktu maghrib),
ntah ape salah mereka,
"censored lagu!!" RTM suruh

(soklan bonus)
ooh..
nape setiap superhero berkumpulan..
mesti ade kostum kaler merah?

ade sorang mamat hebat,
pakai baju kaler kelabu (silver sbnarnye),
bile lawan makin kuat,
naga robot disuruhnye bantu

mamat ijau naek moto
ade sesungut macam belalang,
lompat n sepak lawan pon K.O,
kalao x K.O, die kuarkan pedang

(soklan bonus #2)
lepas lawan..
nape mesti resakse meletop?

mamat nih plak tinggi lampai,
datang membantu di negeri Jepang (sori, gune indo sket :p)
"shiaah, shiaah" berbunyi power x sampai,
dada berkelip, power pon datang

(soklan bonus #3)
Negara Jepon negara kaye,
tp kenapa byk resakse?

ada satu superhero ni,
1st time tayang, kat tv4 (metrovision),
bleh terbang apetah lagi berlari,
ngn tok guru miang, die blaja 'bersilat'

ade satu kumpulan lagi,
dilaknat dimaki dikeji alam,
bendera kaler putih suci
2 jalur biru ngn bintang bucu enam

amcm..ade kenal? hehe..

Achtung!! Spoiler!!:

p/s - none of the pictures above drawn by me. They might be subjected to copyright by their owners, in which i didn't name any..sorry :(.

Cheers :D

10 Minutes :D

2009-01-27T08:04:00.005+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I'd like to share a video which will remind us (hopefully), how in the same dimension of time, lots of things can happen. While we're sleeping last night, there were people-at the other side of the world-struggling for food. While we were having a good time with our family last weekend, there were people who cried for their loved ones, who were killed in front of them. While we were watching the 'live' coverage of Ghaza, the people there were frantically finding for covers. What we simply ignore-the opportunity to use our time freely, according to our will-might be a priviledge for others. what did we use our last 10 minutes for? By Ahmad Imamovic:

Somehow, the world seems unfair. How can we live peacefully here, while our brothers and sisters are suffering. How can we simply enjoy the basics-like the water comin out of the tap-while our brothers and sisters, had to beg for the same needs. Life is unfair. The Almighty is the Most Just; spot anything contradictory :)?

Personally, that's why Islam emphasizes in believing the hereafter. Our life is a test for us, indeed. The 'joy' of living harmoniously, properously and peacefully, is also a test, and it isn't easy either. How most of the time, we failed to realize that our life in this world isn't gonna last. We focus most of our attention to the worldly matters. It's not a wrong idea to strive for the world, the problem arise when we forget the world hereafter.

We sympathized our brothers and sisters who suffered. The notion of we should be grateful that we live in such (relatively) peace country is all too common these days. But what do we do with this kinda priviledge (or rather responsibility)? Aren't we the one who lives under the cover of peace suppose to do something, at least to think something that need to be done to those so called unfortunates. Is it enough to just sit and be grateful our country is as it is today? Who, in the name of The Almighty, guarantee that the peace we had will last? What if we are someday gonna sit on the same chair as our 'unfortunates' brothers and sisters today? At that moment of despair, we heard a country keep on saying to be grateful that theirs are peaceful. What then, will we do? I'd like to share a quote from Rev. Martin Niemoller, commenting on events in Germany 1933-1939:

"They came first for the Communists..
but I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Communist.
Then they came for the Jews...
but I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Jew.
Then they came for the Unionists...
but I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Unionist.
Then they came for the Catholic...
but I didn't speak up because I was a Protestant.
Then they came for me...
and by that time...
there was no-one left to speak up for me."

Isn't this what we're currently doing?

For the sake of being 'moderate', let's just accept the sayings for us to be grateful for our calm (again, relatively) situation that we're currently in. But really, when was the last time we realized that our peaceful life is also a test for us. A test cloaked under the hood of freedom, liberty and civil rights. As we will all stand before Allah and be judged.

Jz sharin my 2cents :D

xpasal2 je :)..

2009-01-21T07:45:00.006+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

aku pon da terjebak same..chet..thanks to ira..huhu

TAG 1

7 Ciri Lelaki/Wanita Idaman Saya
- mestilah PEREMPUAN!!aku bkn gay nak list 7 ciri lelaki idaman..wuhuhu
- Muslim/interested in Islam.
- Low profile
- ade ciri2 utk jadi mak (jaoh pandangan..hoho)
- supportive, coz m gonna need it.
- cantik?stakat sdp mate memandang sudey..bukan dpt makan pon kalao cantik..huhu
- loyal

7 Lelaki/Wanita yang Pernah Saya Minati
- penah terminat kat anak cikgu English wktu darjah 1..dasat2..
- penah terminat kat junior sendiri wktu kat maktab aritu..isk..teruk2..
- penah terminat kat klasm8 sendiri..ish2..ape nak jd aku nih..(sumenye minat je..xpenah jd ape pon..huhu)
- ooh..aku penah terminat YUI sebenarnye..nih lg bengong..hahaha
- Penat la nak pk smpai 7 org..nih je cukup kot :D

7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan orang yang diminati
- xleh jawab..xtau..sori2..

7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama orang yang tersayang
- Any secluded island will do :).
*terpikir 1 tuh je..sori2..

7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin dihadiahkan buat orang tersayang
- jam
*nih je y terpikir skg..m not a romantic person, I know.

7 Lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk orang tersayang
- Lagu besday
*apart from dat..nah, suara x sedap..takot gegendang telinga die retak.

TAG 2 (ini yang paling ngarut..ampeh hg ira..hahaha)

1. Take a recent CUTE photo of yourself.
2. Don't change anything, edit or whatever.
3. Post that photo.
4. Post this instructions with the photo.
5. Tag 10 people to do this

.
cute pic of myself? never thought of that. well, judging from the def. of cute by my mates - which i dun quite understand - everything is cute (speech, acts, etc..) - this's 'cute' to me. cam gamba kawen, tggl watak sho kene tuka ngn mane2 girl y sudi..haha. Oh no, dun worry, i'm not good in editing pics (like u should edit a pic at this distant where u can hardly see d faces..haha)

Hard to find 10 ppl to fwd this stuff - I'm a new user of blogspot - so, this's all i got:

MZMS Shahida
MZMS Sazuwi

-As we're laughing and doing our everyday stuffs, may we not forget the sufferings bear by our brothers and sisters in Ghaza and all around the world. Pray so their steadfastness lasts. Pray so their lives be the reasons of their place in His paradise. Amiin.

Sorry, never meant to be rude though..

2009-01-20T22:17:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

As I walked for my class this morning, I stumble across like 5-6 or 7-8 girls, Malaysian girls, under JPA I guess, coz I recognized none of em. They were like waiting for me to cross the road. Then one of em asked me, "Kat mane O'Rorke Hall ek?". Without looking at her, with no voice whatsoever, I just pointed at the building beside us, and went away.

Just when I thought my 'penyakit' with girls is already 'cured', I failed this 'test'. So, for the girls that I met jz now, and to all girls out there, I'm sorry if I'm by any chance looked like an ignorant and have no interest to what's goin on. Never meant to be rude, it just happens. Sorry.

Israel is moving away from Ghaza. Both sides were claiming victories against each other. What's happening is just an episode of genocidal maniacs in action. These lunatics don't show any sign of stopping their intent to wipe Ghaza off the map. What then will be our action in the future?

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Part of me says.. :)

2009-01-16T07:24:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

I sincerely don't know what to be when I grow up when I was at school. People kept telling me about engineering, medicine, erm..n dat's it. I don't see any other option other than those two. 1 day near SPM, my teacher came to our class and all of a sudden he gave this suggestion of why not be a teacher. I never thought of that, but I certainly know dat I DONT wanna be a teacher. Dunno why though. So I continued my journey as a student without any plan for the future, pretty scary huh?huhu..

After SPM, well, with my result, though it's not that good, still I'm able to apply for several scholarships, including 1 of my personal fav, Petronas. I don't know why I love Petronas back then, maybe it's the symbol of how Malaysian could also be a world player in global economy, and Petronas is a well known organization for recruiting engineers. It's like entering a whole new corporate world when you're associated with Petronas, well, that's what I thought then :).

Then my parents saw this advert from MARA. They wanna send people overseas to be teachers. I'm not into this at first, but at that time, I have this mentality of applying all scholarships that I'm eligible to. Never thought to be called by MARA for interview though. Still, my hopes are still high for Petronas.

Few months later, after series of interviews, I got offers from both Petronas n MARA. Oh how I'm glad at that time. I made up my mind to go for Petronas, at UTP. I was like ignoring the offer from MARA, not that I'm not interested to the offer, it's just my attention is more towards Petronas at that time. Furthermore, my father leaves the decision making to me, so, go-go Petronas!!

A week before enrolling into KMS (MARA enrollment was a week earlier than Pet's), I got into this conversation with my father. I'm not quite remember what's been talked that night, the thing I remember the most was he asked me of what i'll be chasing if I accept Petronas' offer (i.e. to be an engineer i'Allah). Is it money?fame?wealth?adventure?all?. If these are the things for me, he said they're just worldly, n wont last long. He doesn't want me to be preoccupied with all these all my life. He reminded me that there will be a world after this world ends. If these are the things that I wanna chase all my life, he then prefered me to live my life modestly. It's alrite not to be as rich as possible, the more important thing is to not be as poor in religious matter. He then asked me to think about being a teacher, taking the offer from MARA.

To cut the story short (the story of I don't know what to expect from IB, the friggin experience from my IB life in KMS, well, that's another story to tell..hehe :)), I took the offer from MARA. I don't wanna be a teacher, I dunno why, that's why I took my preparation programme lightly. By the time I realized my mistakes, it was kinda too late for me. KMS certainly thought me a lot. The spirits the teachers gave for their students, how the teachers struggle to teach us in English, the passion and the will to help us, really hit my brain somewhere, that I thought to myself, I wanna be at least in par with em. That's when I really wanna be a teacher. To me, a teacher doesn't only teach formally, a teacher shapes his students, a teacher guides his students, a teacher is like a mentor for his students. A teacher is a teacher. The scope of the word teach shouldn't be restricted to the formal activities in class. Teach is a rich word, that only a person without enough understandings, would, unfortunately, underestimate a person called teacher. Only a person without enough awareness on how big and heavy the responsibility he bears, would underestimate his 'work' as a teacher, and give bad name to this profession.

Well, apart from that, people asked me, why do I want to continue this programme (to be a teacher). I told em that I owe a great debt to MARA. This is somewhat my way to return their favour. This is one of the ways which I can directly contribute towards Islam and my fellow nation. It's somewhat sadden me to know that there're people in this programme still don't have the passion to be a teacher. This programme is like a stepping stone for their 'future'. I don't give a damn on your plannings, really, just don't underestimate people who are willing to devote their lives into this profession!

Do I have any other plans for my life apart from teaching one might ask. Well, I'm a MARA product, what else do you expect? "Keusahawanan Kerjaya Pilihan" :). I'd love to be involved in agricultural sector. From veges to livestocks. I wanna contribute to the society; provide jobs, and to be an active contributor for Halal products. My long term target is to erase all the uncertainties our fellow muslims had for the existing products. So that we don't have to worry no more as the foods we had will be Halal and good (halaalan Toyyiba). That's why I'm very happy if I heard there're Muslims who involved in this sector and succeeded :). May His blessings and wealth be with you, amiin :D. How do I achieve this dream?well, let's just let this dream be a dream, FOR NOW, for I don't quite have enough resources and knowledge to make the dream a reality. I pray so Allah give me the opportunity to realize this dream, amiin :). There's a thin line dividing a dream and an ambition, with enough will and effort, your dream is already becomes an ambition and on its way to be a reality, i'Allah :)

Let's pray for our brothers and sisters who're oppressed in Ghaza and all around the world. Let's pray for the world to be a better place to live. Let's pray so all these prejudice, racism, and brutal mentality away from us. Let's pray for Allah to show his guidance to all of us, and for us to be guarded from the hell fire. May all the people who died in Ghaza accepted by Allah as His matyrs. May those who live in Ghaze be granted with Allah's will to survive and the strength to fight for their rights. Amiin :(.

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Gaza Protest , Auckland, 100109

2009-01-11T08:15:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Yesterday I attended this rally protesting what's happening in Gaza right now. More than 500 people (3News claims more than 800 people) involved in this protest. The protest went peacefully, starting with speeches by activists, Green Party leader, and by our local Imam at Aotea Square, then a march for about 1 km along Queen Street towards the US Consulate at Customs Street, and ended with the symbolic shoe-throwing towards the consulate building. The protest was organised by Justice for Palestine, Palestine Human Rights Campaign, Global Peace and Justice Auckland.

If we can assemble in the name of humanity, why can't we unite in the name of Allah?

The organisers suggest 5 ways to help the Palestinians:

1) To attend this kind of protest.
2) To support Free Gaza Movement
3) To sign Avazz.org petition: GAZA: STOP THE BLOODSHED
4) To boycott Israeli goods
5) To send a message to NZ's Prime Minister, to condemn the Israeli bombardment of Gaza (j.key@ministers.govt.nz)

Okie, enough of the formal report, this is my point of view for the protest. It's a relief for me to see that there're many people who support the Palestinians, as I used to believe that only Muslims and Arabs will take serious of the matter. It shows that, this aggression doesn't only matter to Muslims and Arabs, this overboard military action by the zionist against the Palestinians also matters to all. It's not just about religion or region, it's about humanity. The killings of civilians, of women, children, the olds, are totally unacceptable, but how funny still is argued. There are still lots of people believe that Israel is just protecting their land from rocket barrage by Hamas (home-made rockets that is). Well, these ignorant, history-blind, naive, and most probably zionist, cannot be reasoned with. They shut their eyes from searching for both stories of what's happening in the middle east. Even if they did, the facts will just fall on their prejudiced mind. The argument of Palestinians should respect Israel's sovereignty as an independent state? Please, we have our own limit on how stupid we can be.

Thanks to the Iraqi reporter, this has become a new phenomenon

My advice, stop being ignorantly spoon fed by the media, use the brain and your common sense, with some history knowledge, and please, watch some documentaries regarding to the sufferings of the Palestinians, of which they're not just traumatised by wars, but also ethnic-cleansing. And tell me, why should the Palestinians, whom house torn down, whose husbands, wives, children, parents killed in front of their eyes, whom their land forcefuly taken by the zionist and developed into housings for the so-called settlers, should respect their 'sovereignty' just because their state is 'legal'? Please, this stupidity, insanity isn't acceptable, really.

Though yesterday's march was dominated by Muslims and Socialists; though we have different visions, different ideology, our mission is the same: To kick the zionists ass out of the Palestinians land!Enough is enough!

burn-n-stomp: uncivilised activity?compared to the butchery in Gaza, this is nothing

Let us pray so Allah reward His courage to our brothers and sisters in Ghaza and all around the world to protect their rights. To seed fear into our enemy's heart. Let their long lives be the reason of their unprecedented sufferings in His eternal flame of Jahannam. Pray so Allah make them see His light, and together help to reduce the sufferings of Muslims all around the world. Pray so Allah forgive all our sins, our incapabilities to help our brothers and sisters, pray so Allah accept our tiny effort to help them. Pray so Allah put his mercy into our brothers and sisters heart, so they would forgive us for not doing anything while they're being oppressed, seing their family members slaughtered in front of their eyes, losing their homes and land. May His Mercy also made all those who died in the 'battlefield' of Ghaza as His Martyrs. Amiin :(.

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Stop The Massacre in Ghaza

2009-01-09T15:50:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

There'll be an assembly in Auckland regarding to this matter tomorrow (Saturday, 10/01/2009). As what Sh. Rafat said in his khutbah Jumaat earlier today, we need to express our concerns towards our brothers and sisters in Ghaza. This slaughter isn't only condemn by muslims, also by general public, for this is insanity in action. No matter who we are, I humbly think that we all agree this is a genocide, well, unless we're that naive and easily brainwashed to believe this is just another so-called war against terror.

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SIlat2 Sket~ :D (2)

2009-01-08T23:18:00.002+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

This post is the continuation from the previous post under Silat2 Sket label. I'd not translate the post as I'm afraid the context and the intended meanings would be differ from the original post. Bear in mind the material from this post's taken from an e-book called SIKAP PENDEKAR - Fahami 20 Perkataan Ajaib Menjadi Pesilat Terbilang. This post is intended for educational purposes only. This post also serves as a promotion towards the understanding of Silat for readers. Cheers :).

"Pendekar ialah insan yang berilmu, beramal dan berkemahiran dalam ilmu persilatan pada zahir dan batin berteraskan adat seni budaya Melayu bersendikan syarak, menggunakan ilmu di tempat yang betul demi kebenaran dan keamanan dengan jiwa yang tenang serta berketerampilan berlandaskan semangat kesatriaan yang luhur" - Tuan Guru Haji Anuar Abdul Wahab

1st word: Insan

Manusia atau makhluk berakal iaitu sebaik-baik makhluk yang diciptakan Allah. Dengan kebijaksanaan akal, manusia berupaya hidup sejahtera bersih daripada noda dan tidak menyembah selain daripada Allah yang Maha Esa.

2nd word: Berilmu

Memiliki pengetahuan, berakal, kepandaian, kepakaran dan kebolehan. Ilmu adalah hasil minat dan usaha belajar, pengalaman dan mengkaji dengan akal yang dianugerahkan Allah.

3rd word: Beramal

Melakukan sesuatu pekerjaan yang mendatangkan kebajikan atau faedah kepada diri, masyarakat, agama, negara, alam dan Penciptanya. Sebaik-baik amalan adalah dari hati yang suci dan ikhlas kerana amal itu adalah buah ilmu.

Oleh itu, bersihkan atau sucikan hati terlebih dahulu sebelum melakukan amal kerana amalam dengan hati yang suci dan ikhlas seumpamanya dapat mengelakkan hambatan nafsu dan syaitan

4th word: Berkemahiran

Cekap, pakar, terlatih atau ahli dalam sesuatu pekerjaan dan dapat menjalankan tugas dengan teratur, lancar dan sempurna,

5th word: Persilatan

Ilmu seni mempertahankan diri bangsa Melayu. Di dalamnya terdapat gerak, kaedah dan muslihat penggunaan senjata atau tulang empat kerat untuk menghadapi secara berseni dan saintifik.

6th word: Zahir

Semua perkara luaran, tubuh, fizikal atau sesuatu yang dapat ditangani oleh pancaindera dan logik. Silat pada zahir bermakna segala gerak dan kaedah yang dapat dilakukan dengan anggota tubuh badan

7th word: Batin

Kepada diri sebenar manusia ialah nyawa, jiwa, hati atau roh yang menghidup dan menggerakkan manusia. Ilmu batin boleh dibahagikan kepada tiga jenis iaitu jenis batil, syirik dan haq.

Ilmu batin haq berlandaskan tasawuf membentuk hubungan telus antara insan dengan Allah yang berkekalan dengan makrifat dan hakikat serta mengamalkan syariat Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. berlandaskan Al-Quran dan hadith dengan inayahNya dianugerahkan iman, laduni dan mukasyaf.

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p/s: I read in utusan online today that 48 were dead bombed by those damn zionist regime. Damn those flesh hunger and blood thirsty SOABs. Damn them, damn all of em equally!!

Oh UBS..oh UBS..oh oh oh!!!

2009-01-06T15:32:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

This is exactly why I shouldn't go to a book shop, this is why :(.

the title is to be blame rite..not me rite?huhuhu..it's the title's fault makin my pocket suffers even more..huhu~

p/s: I made myself clear that I'm condemning those zionists bastard. I got nothing personal against the Jews, it's even unfair to me for us to blame the whole Jewish community to be responsible for the massacre. Though there're people who claim anti zionism = anti semitism, the heck with that, I'm still holding my stance that a Jew and a Zionist are 2 different be ings. So, damn those blood thirsty morons for messing with my brothers and sisters! May Allah forgive my rudeness in expressing my views against those mentally challenged war-hunger zionists, amiin :(.

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1st day of Summer Semester 2009 :)

2009-01-06T11:16:00.001+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

Today (06012009) marked the 1st day of my summer school class :). History 103G.

Introductory class, introduction to global history. The question of whether the Europeans had always been dominating the Earth. The question of if there should be an empire more superior than the Europeans'. Just my thing, juz my thing :D :D. I'm gonna love this class, I pray, I hope, and I should..huhu.

This's what I learn today :). Well, the lecturer talks fast, loads of points in his lecture but not as much time to memorize and write all those. I wish my memory is as good when I was in my lower form..haiih.

There is never 1 story of the past. History is highly affected by historians, depending to which historians you're talking to. History could sometimes be selective; historians would take parts of the past, and compose a story out of it, pretty darn rite?

History isn't objective. On one particular event, there could be many interpretation, depending on which side of historians you take your history from. For example, the West colonisation of the East. Our history might be a way for our historians to convey their ideology. 1 thing for sure, the past is much more complex than any history account could count for.

This's all for the introduction. We also learnt today how the Chinese Empire had been superior in term of economy, armed forces, and so much more. But my today's post would be focusing on the philosophy of history itself. :). So I think this is it for today :). Ah ye, the lecture also mentioned bout how great the Malay seafarers were. Their knowledge of the sea that contributes to economic growth of pre 15th century era :). How glad am I to hear that :). The Europeans had not always been the superior empire that dominates the Earth, it's our historians made us to look that way :).

Cheers :)
.
'welcome gift' for my 1st day of class this year..hehe..interesting..ade refreshment tu..hoho

p/s : Don't think I'd forget the cruelness of those blood thirsty being of zionists towards my brothers and sisters. I still condemn your lunatic, irresponsible, ruthless act. Allah's guidance be with whomever He please. May we become one of them. Amiin :). Those morons will pay for their act. Allah is the Most Just. Those bloody bastards wont laugh long, not forever.

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Aku & Mimpi...

2009-01-04T18:47:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

About 2 days ago, I had this strange dream. It's not a strange thing for me to have a strange dream, but this time, this strange dream somewhat makes me ponder things a lil bit more. I dreamt of being sent into hell. Erm, I dunno how to describe the feelings back then.

1st thing 1st, I felt like this should be a dream, but seing hell itself, I mean, to dream that you're in hell is a hope that you're not actually in one. It's a hope for someone who's sent to hell (I hope my point is digestible..erm). I remembered of hearing it from a kuliah that Hell is the supreme set of torture. You're not just tortured physically, but also mentally. It's also a torture for someone who's sent to hell believing that he/she is only dreaming, hoping that the torment isn't real. Well, back to my story. I'll try my best to remember my dream.

I had this so-called 'tourist guide' guiding me through hell. I was sent into a room of like 30 people, with greenish surroundings. She (I think it's a she) brought me to see the hell. I saw a 'thing' (it's a giant figure of a man-like creature) holding this big and fiery 'sebat' (i dunno what's sebat in English, pardon my weakness..huhu). The 'thing' looked at me as if I'm his next victim. At that very moment, I think I can handle it becoz I think I'd be dead by the time the first hit got me, and that's it. But then, my tiny brain told me that I won't be dead in Hell, so I'll suffer the torment without a dying body :(, and that freaked me out.

Walking through 'hell' made me thirsty, and I was nearly asked for a drink before I remembered that in Hell, the only drink ya'll get is boiling pus. I refrained myself from asking for the drink. Then, this frightening thought rang, "How long more could I hold my thirst?". I won't die, I'll thirst to, well, i can't even describe of thirsting till death but you're not gonna be dead :(. It's the feeling of you got nowhere to go. There's no place called home anymore for me to get a drink afterwards. The earthly-life has ended and I'm in Hell. I dunno how to describe that feeling. It even comes to you to ask to Allah to give you another chance, but you remembered, in the Holy Quran, Allah has warned us that people will ask for another chance, but they would be given none. It's the feeling of ultimate hopelessness, where you got no one to hold on to :(. The fright can't be describe by words. It's that thing of you have to first-handedly experience to understand :(. The analogy for me is simple, here on earth, we could simply say how a poor man lives. He hardly get any food, he works so hard to earn his meal. But we won't really understand the situation unless we're inside the poor man's shoes!

The thing I remembered from the dream was also the thought of I don't remember being dead. My last account of memory was I was ready to sleep. It's like, our Ustaz and Ustazah always remind us to prepare for our death, and well, how many of us really take that seriously. What I felt in that dream was, it was a little too late for me to ponder those words :(. I can't remember anymore than that :(.

What I do remember was the feeling when I opened up my eyes that morning :(. I dunno how to describe the feeling. 2nd chance? I dunno. I woke up that morning being soo much grateful that it's not my 'time' yet. I got scared that I want to remember the dream for every second of my life, so that I wont dare to do any violations against Allah's law. But we're merely humans, and it's our nature to forget things, including this 'big' dream of mine. That's why I write it down so it serves as a reminder for me in the future.

Well, people always say to fear Allah's hell fire. It's more than a reminder, I hope we can all grasp and take action on the advice before it's too late. I'm not a good person, but I certainly don't want to end up 'there'. It's not worth it for us to be at the same place as the Pharaoh, and all those sinners mention in the Holy Quran for our 'little' and preventable sins :(. Death is inevitably real. But how much have I prepared to face Izrael when the time comes? Well, even I am afraid to admit it :(.

p/s : We're all gonna be in front of Allah on the Day of Judgement. There're loads of questions will be asked from us. If Allah asks us, what do we do to help our brothers and sisters all around the world who had been slained, raped and tortured? what can we offer as our respond? It's Allah the All-Knowing. We can't cheat or play with words with Him. It's our deeds that counts. May Allah forgive our limited reaction towards our brothers and sisters suffering all around the world. May Allah know how much inside us, we'd really want to damn those war mongers! Those friggin zionist!!May our brothers and sisters forgive our minimum effort to help them. amiin :(.

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SUMMER SCHOOL 2009 (HISTORY 103G)

2009-01-03T11:38:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum,

I'm preparing to gear up myself as the summer vacation nearly ends (well, for me, n for those doing summer school :p).
I'll be doin History 103G (which for no good reason i kept confusin myself with History 101G) this summer semester.

The class will be starting on the 6th of January till mid February.
The schedule is quite loose as I'll be taking only 1 subject for the semester.
And for that, I really, really, highly, hope that with this kind of schedule, I could score this paper as I'll be focusing on only 1 paper, i'Allah..yosh!!amiin :D.
All d best for all who'll be struggling with me this summer semester!!
yoooooooosh (pjgnye..hahaha)!!

p/s : As we're all doing our business, let's not forget the sufferings our brothers and sisters had to bear in Ghaza and all around the world. Damn those Zionists! Damn those who support them!

"Supporting the Palestinian people in Gaza is a religious duty on every Muslim individual according to his capabilities, and no one is exempted from that duty" - Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qaradawi

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To Watch or to Help? (2)

2008-12-31T22:25:00.000+13:00

IOF* gunboats assault "Dignity" boat, damage its bow

BEIRUT, (PIC)-- An Israeli navy gunboat on Tuesday deliberately crashed into the front part of the "Dignity" boat that was carrying international sympathizers and doctors from Cyprus to Gaza along with medical supplies and forced it to retreat.

Media sources on board the "Dignity" reported that the Israeli occupation forces' naval units blocked entry of "dignity" into Palestinian territorial waters and destroyed its bow.

Amjad Al-Shawa, spokesman for the network of private institutions, said from aboard "Dignity" that a number of IOF gunboats were surrounding it in international waters.

He added that "Dignity" was forced to divert its destination and was seeking the nearest possible harbor in view of the damage.

He warned that lives of the crew and members of the team on board were in danger, and held the IOF fully responsible for their safety.

Shawa said that the cargo includes three tons of medicine other than four doctors and a number of foreign activists.

The Hebrew radio said that the boat could not move on its own and was stranded at sea in front of the Haifa port after its engines were damaged in the crash.

However, the boat managed to enter the Lebanese regional waters later on and docked at Tyre harbor

IOF* = Israeli Occupation Forces
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My Comment:

This over-the-freakin-bloody-limit by the Zionist is totally unacceptable. Thanks to the modern technology, we're watching a genocide in action, in HD, damn! What can we do? Our help couldn't even reach Gaza. Those blood thirsty bastards are going way overboard with their satanic desire and ideology. Once again, may Allah forgive our limited capabilities to help our brothers and sisters. May our brothers and sisters forgive us. May they endure this hell-on-earth succesfully. May they're all be rewarded with Allah's Jannah. May we are able to stand in front of Allah on the Judgement Day and present a well and solid excuse on why couldn't we help them. Oh Allah forgive us :(.

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To Watch or to Help?

2008-12-31T10:42:00.000+13:00

Hamas: We will not raise the white flag

GAZA, (PIC)-- On the fourth day of the barbaric Israeli occupation forces' bombardment of the Gaza Strip that primarily targeted Hamas buildings and government institutions but which also destroyed civilian homes, Hamas asserted that it would never surrender or raise the white flag.

Dr. Ismail Radwan, one of the political leaders of Hamas, said in a press release on Tuesday that targeting mosques, universities, charitable and civil institutions and civilian homes point to the "ugly, racist, savage and terrorist image of the Israeli occupation".

He urged the Qassam Brigades, the armed wing of Hamas, to retaliate to the aggression, and hailed the Palestinian people's legendary steadfastness and backing of resistance.

Radwan also heaped praise on the Arab and Islamic masses that demonstrated in support of Palestine and called on them to continue pressuring their governments to support the Palestinians.

In another statement for Hamas on Tuesday, it said that the Palestinian people would not be content with the official Arab and Islamic regimes' condemnation but would rather like those regimes to adopt practical steps that would end the "oppressive aggression immediately, to sever all relations with the enemy and to open the Rafah border terminal".

The statement said that the IOF holocaust in Gaza is the latest in a series of brutal crimes against the Palestinian people.

It asked citizens not to evacuate their homes at the request of the IOF to shell them, and asked the people to form human shields around those houses to foil that scheme.

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My Comment:

certainly we don't wanna just sit n watch this happening rite :). Damn that Israel. May Allah forgive our limited capabilities to help our brothers n sisters. May our brothers and sisters be kind enough to forgive our 'irresponsible' reaction towards the attack. Oh how I'm sorry :(. May Allah accept our insignificant effort to help our brothers and sisters there. Ya Allah, forgive and help us!amiin. Damn Israel! Damn Zionists! May Allah Damn you to the bottom pit of Jahannam! May Allah forgive us all, amiin.

Condemn Statement

2008-12-30T00:25:00.000+13:00

I, Muhammad Hafiz Ab Hamid, the author of this page, am hereby condemn the latest aggression by the Zionist towards the Palestinians on 27/12/2008 which claimed more than 250 Palestinians soul.

May Allah showers His mercy upon us and forgive us for not being able to stand against the continuos inhumane treatment towards our Palestinians brother and sister.

May the ones responsible be answered for their action.
May the ones lost their lives, be amongst the best by the side of Allah. Amiin.

Silat2 Sket~ :D

2008-12-29T22:38:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)

In this post, I'd like to share my love in Silat (though I'm not that good in one) :).
I hope I'd be able to share my knowledge at the same time to increase mine :).
This is not a holy book, hence you are welcome to correct my mistakes if there're any :).

According to Tuan Guru Haji Anuar Abdul Wahab (Guru Utama Seni Gayong Fatani Malaysia),
Silat is a knowledge; the knowledge to defend oneself and belongs to Malaysians (note that he didn't use d word Malays).
The knowledge however, is inherited by the Malays.

As we all know (hopefully), Silat is a general term for martial art originated, and practiced by people from the Malay Archipelago.

http://etc.usf.edu/maps/pages/3100/3126/3126.jpg

Similar to the chinese martial art, e.g kung fu, there're many disciplines (aliran) in Silat.
In my post however, will be more focused towards the discipline of Seni Gayong Fatani, as I'm more familiar with this style of Silat.
It's not my intention to differentiate or worse to overestimate this style (and underestimate others), rather, it's only logical for me to talk something familiar to me (though I'm not dat good)..rite :)?

As there're terms which I can't translate to English (due to my lack of skills in English),
thus there'll be several parts where I'll just use Bahasa Melayu instead :).

Here we go..yosh!!

First stop, Sikap Pendekar/Falsafah Pendidikan Silat :)

"Pendekar ialah insan yang berilmu, beramal dan berkemahiran
dalam ilmu persilatan pada zahir dan batin
berteraskan adat seni budaya Melayu bersendikan syarak,
menggunakan ilmu di tempat yang betul demi kebenaran dan
keamanan dengan jiwa yang tenang serta berketerampilan
berlandaskan semangat kesatriaan yang luhur" - Tuan Guru Haji Anuar Abdul Wahab

Picture might not be related to the article :p

Too many of unfamiliar or flowery words? Rest assured the statement worth more than mere fancy words.

There're 20 keywords from the above statement of Sikap Pendekar/Falsafah Pendidikan Silat.

I'll explain them in my next post under this label i'Allah :).

Till then :).

Wassalam :)

USB?UBS la..

2008-12-25T00:35:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

I bought these 3 new books yesterday :)..
they're all equally interesting..
well, judging from the intro n the title (though the saying not to judge a book by its cover..well, not quite in my case, dari mate jatoh ke hati, dari hati poketku kering..hoh :p) these books are worth buying.

basically I went to UBS (University Book Store) to buy a text book for my History 101G (yeap..HISTORY TEXT BOOK)..
then i saw this book entitled Quantum Theory Cannot Hurt You: A Guide to the Universe. Sounds cool huh?hoho..
who can resist that kinda title..rite..rite?
A book talking about the entire human race would fit in the volume of a sugar cube;
you age faster at the top of a building than at the bottom;
and all that crap from modern physics..man, it's a big NO-NO not to buy it..well, @least not to me :D

Then, while searching for the history text book, on the same shelf, there was this book "How Mathematics Happened".
I mean,..wallaweh, they're gonna explain how 1 of my major cause of headache started?and I don't see any reason why shouldn't I get 1 (xcept for d fact dat my pocket isn't dat deep..huhu)

And then there she was. The real 'beauty'. "The Human Web: A Bird's-Eye View of WOrld History". It's a book worth reading.
I might consider of buying the book even if I don't sit for the History paper this summer semester.

well, that's why I can't go to bookstore often. I'll end up buying more than i should have (sigh~).
jz hopin i'd read all d books..hehe..that's where the real challenge hides :p

Cheers :D

Amma, Ummi, Emak, Mama n y sewaktu dengannye :D

2008-12-23T19:55:00.001+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

xigt amek kat mane artikel nih..mnx maaf bbyk kepada penulis asal :).

Emak.. Mak.....
Terlalu bosan rasanya duduk membilang
hari.
Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi,
Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan
sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih....

Mak tau tak.....
itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang
nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa.....
dan itu juga terakhir kali nya.
Emmmm...rupanya mak dah tau mak nak
pergi jauh....
nak tinggal kan anak2 mak.....
nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni.....
mak macam dan sedia.....
Seminggu sebelum tu.....mak dah
menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai.....
Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar
tuu.....
tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih.....
kakak pun rasa hairan.....
mak tak penah buat gitu.....
pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah
mak.....
tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa
rancangan radio tu siaran siam.....
kengkadang siaran indonesia... mak terus
tekun menganyam...
Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di
gunakan untuk mengiringi mak ke kuburan..

Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah
bersih2....
pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. ..
pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain..mak
biarkan ruang tu kosong..
rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan..
paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner
sume duit dan barang kemas mak..
ada kat dalam almari.....
ada kat dalam dalam beg.....
ada dalam ASB.....
ada kat dalam Tabung Haji..
mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi....
ada kat dalam gulung tikar.....
masa tu mak perasan takk..??
kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam
gulung tikar...kiter
kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa...
mak cuma gelak jer...
eeemmm..bahagiaa nya saat ituu..

Mak.....
Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang
mak tiba2 sakit perut.....
bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL.....mak dah
dalam kesakitan.
Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah
pujuk.....
mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... .
dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang
belum pujuk.
Mak kata mak takmau duduk dalam hospital...
tapi kiter berkeras juga pujukk..
nanti di hospital ada doktor...ada ubat untuk
mak..
kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak
dan urut ajer..
Mak tetap tak bersetuju... ..mak memang degil..
tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut
perangai mak tu..
Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak
makin teruk....
mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak
pon sakit kami adik beradik
sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital.... .

Mak.....
amponkan kami semua...
kami nak mak sehat...
kami sayang mak...
kami tak mau mak sakit...
kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital....
ampon kan kami yer mak....

Mak.....
Malam itu abang bawa mak ke hospital dan
itu lah pertama dan terakhir kali
mak naik kereta kiter...
Masih terbayang betapa ceria dan
gembiranya mak, kiter kata nak
beli kereta....
Mak asyik tanya ajer..cukup ker duitt..
kiter jawab pula...kalau tak cukup,
mak kan banyak duit...
mak gelak ajerr.....
Lepas tu bila kereta kiter sampai.....mak buat
kenduri kesyukuran.. ...
Dan kiter masih ingat lagi...bila kiter eksiden
terlanggar kelinn naik motor.....

Punya la kiter takut...kiter warning kakak kiter
jangan sesekali bgtau kat mak.....
Bila balik sahaja kampong....kiter cepat-cepat
simpan keta dalam garaj.....
Tapi mak perasan juga bumper depan
kemek...mak tanya kenapa...?
Selamba jerr kiter jawab terlangar pokok
bunga.....
Mak....tujuan kiter menipu tu supaya mak tak
risau...
Maafkan kiter kerana sampai mak pergi mak
tak tau hal sebenar...
mak, kiter menipu mak kan...ampon kan kiter..

Mak.....
Jam 4.30 pagi 19/08/1999
Bila tiba aja kat hospital.... nurse tengah balut
mak dengan kain putih.....
mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di
lantai hospital...
Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak.....
Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak.
..
Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi
kat sudut itu...
mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann. .
kannn
Mak tau tak....
Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5.20 pagi kiter
mamandu dalam keadaan
separuh sedar...
Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann...
Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam
kepala ini...
jalan di depan terasa makin kelam.....
airmata dah tak mampu di tahan....
Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan
itu kiter rela...
Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai
juga. di sebab kan pagi masih awal,
jadi jalan tu lenggang..kosong. ...sekosong
hati ini.....
Sepanjang pe! rjalanan terasa kedinginan
subuh itu lain benar suasananya.. ...
terasa syahdu dan sayu gitu...dinginnnn. ...

Mak.....
Kiter masih ingat lagi...
Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan
mak...
Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan....
Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi....
Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami
mengosok seluruh tubuh mak.....
Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan.....
Mak perasan tak...?
Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter.....
Dia kata..." dikk...jangan nangis...kalau
sayang mak jangan buat
gitu...jangan
nangis ya.."
Bila makcik tu kata gitu...
lagi laaaa laju airmata ni..tapi kiter kawal
supaya tak menitik atas mak....

Mak.....
Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis.....
kiter nangis ni.....
Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi....
Takder orang yang bangun lagi.....
kiter dengar nasyid tajuk "anak soleh"
kiter sedih...kiter rindu kat mak..!
Takpa la.....nanti bila kita selesai
sembanyang subuh, kiter baca yassin untuk
mak...
mak tunggu ya...!

Mak..
Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya..

Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak...
menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir....
Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja..

Mak rasa tak....masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak..
kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk.....
Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak...kiter tak
daya....
kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak
dengan air mawar...
Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan....
Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi
imam solat jenazah untuk mak...
tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab
kite sebak....

Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari
rumah....
Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik..
badan akak terasa panas...
makk...anak mak yang seorang tu demam....
Mak tauu...cuma akak sorang saja anak mak
yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah
perkuburan.. .

Mak.....
Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi...
Begitu terasa kehilangan mak...boleh kata
setiap malam selepas maghrib anak mak
ini berendam airmata...

Dan sampai satu tahap....masa tu malam
jumaat selepas maghrib...
Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-
kawan.
entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan
gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi...
semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu...
tangisan tak dapat dibendung...
Mak tauu...kiter cuba bertahan...
memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda...
Kiter rasa nak telefon mak...
nak cakap dengan mak....
anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan..????
Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter
telefon kampong...
Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi.
Puas la kakak memujuk kiter...
Akak kata..." tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah
untuk mak..nanti kalau gini
ajer mak yang susah kat sana.."
Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis.....
Agaknya mak nampak adegan tu...
sebab malam jumaat kata orang roh balik
rumahh...
mengharap sedekah dari anak2 nya...

Mak tau tak...di saat itu kerinduan terasa
menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati...
rasa nyilu sangat....
menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit
dalam dada ni....
Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu
menjelma...hanya sedekah al-fatihah
kiter berikan.....

Mak....
cukup la sampai sini dulu....
kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu....
kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat
masjid...
selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor
kan...
kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak...
esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula....
Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih..
pastu kawan kiter bgtau...simpan je buat
kenangan..

Kiter cuma tau alamat ni aje...
Takper yer mak...kiter kasi orang lain baca...
Kiter stop dulu...sebab kawan kiter dah lama
tunggu tu.
akhir kata untuk mak, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
dan jutaan terima kasih kerana
membesarkan kiter...
memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil
sampai masuk sekolah..
sampai masuk unibesiti..
sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang...
boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang...
Sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan
mampu kiter balas..

Sekian terimakasih.

Yang Benar
~Anak mak yang dah tak degil

p/s - amacam..ade terasa?

Privatisation of IJN (Institut Jantung Negara)

2008-12-20T16:22:00.001+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

About 2 days ago I read in Utusan Malaysia Online regarding the proposal made by Sime Darby Berhad to be the biggest shareholder of IJN.

The news raises some concerns amongst most of our fellow Malaysians, from different level and field in the society. The question of would the 'new' IJN be middle and low-class friendly, and the concern of whether this move would actually be beneficial, both for the government and Sime Darby, and not to forget, to the IJN itself, its expertise, the staffs, and so much more.

Briefly, Privatisation Policy was introduced in 1981, under the administration lead by our former PM, Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad.

One can't deny (in most cases) how much has this policy contribute in the development (most of it, economically) of this country. By privatising public sectors (in which serve the public), the government could save loads of money and focus the use of the 'profit' somewhere else, where they seem fit.

On the bright side, for consumers, we can enjoy a better quality of service, as the sector has become more towards business-oriented (customer-friendly) rather than service-minded (in which u r expected to be grateful the service exists, regardless of the performance).

As the service becomes more for business, one can feel the burden of coping with the cost. And not everyone can cope with this kind of change (economically speaking).

Let us just pray and hope the proposal of selling 51% of the IJN equity to Sime Darby Berhad be beneficial to all. Sime Darby had also promised to let the fee structure as how it is, so that the middle-class and the poor could also benefit from the service, as for we all know, health problems didn't discriminate on how deep your pocket is, health services do.

Jz sharing my 2cents. Cheers :D!!

Tumpang lalu sket~

2008-12-19T07:40:00.000+13:00

Assalamualaikum :)..

This's my 1st post on my 1st blog attempt using blogspot (which makes this my 2nd blog page, apart from my friendster's one)..
d purpose of this blog of mine?
none other than to share my thoughts n knowledge, to express myself, to share my experience and for me to understand myself better i'Allah :)..

I'm not a good blogger, I don't write often (pemalas gile), but somehow I think I need a medium to express my thoughts on certain issue, general events and such, for I don't want my thoughts to be wasted. I'm not good in sharing ideas, so I'll take this opportunity to improve myself. Oh ye, i hope my points would also be easily chewed :).

Cheerio :D :D!!